The Silent Witness

Best story ever (very recommend it)

2012-01-21T21:58:00.000-08:00

Okay I just wanna tell about the last K-drama that I've ever seen....
The story is really good, make me speechless and bombay crying..
It just nonsense if i was crying in front of the LCD screen without any good reasons...
This story is just too touchy...
Film ini bukan film yang ceritanya tentang cinta2an doang, yang konyol2an gimana gitu, atau yang fantasy yang ga realistis.
Ini tuh menurut gw genrenya: romantic, comedy, fantasy, horror, friendship, life, family.
Film ini tuh bener2 aaaa... gila... keren bgt menurut gw, soalnya disini lo bakal ngeliat cerita cinta sejati, bukan cerita cinta yang biasa -biasanya kita liat di K-drama lainnya. Gw ga bermaksud untuk ngebandingin 49 days sm K-drama lainnya lho ya. Tapi entah kenapa film ini bener2 kerasa banget feelnya. Disini nunjukkin cinta sejati yang bener2 cinta, gimana ya, meski si yi soo udah meninggal dya rela buat ngejalanin tgs 5 thn jadi malaikat pencabut nyawa cuma demi ketemu sama si yi kyung selama 1 hari. Dan dya tuh bener2 mikirin yi kyung, cinta bgt sama yi kyung, peduli dan tanggung jawab bgt bgt sama yi kyung, bahkan sampe di saat terakhir. Bener-bener sampe di saat terakhir.. aaaaaaaa....

Disini pembawaan, dialog sm tingkah dari aktor sm aktrisnya yang ngebuat ini lucu, gw jamin yang ngebuat skrip atau cerita nih film, jago bgt deh, ngerti banget sama selera penonton. 4 thumbs up yaa buat seluruh kru termasuk artis2 di film ini.

Fantasynya adalah ya ini kan ceritanya tentang orang yang koma terus dya minjem tubuh orang lain buat nyari 3 orang yang mau nangisin buat dya secara tulus. Nah disini ada scheduler atau malaikat mautnya yang tugasnya manggilin orang yang di bumi buat pergi ke alam baka. Disinilah sisi fantasynya.

Horrornya adalah ketika lo coba bayangin jadi Han Kang, Kang min ho, In jung, disitu jelas2 ji hyun nya lagi koma, tapi berasanya seolah si shin ji hyun tuh ada, mulai dari susunan bonekanya di kamar ji hyun yang tiba2 tersusun rapi sesuai dengan urutan yang biasa di buat ji hyun, stempel atau capnya ji hyun yg jelas2 hrsnya ada di boneka kanggurunya ji hyun eh tapi malah ada di kafenya han kang. Itu tuh kejadian yang buat merinding tapi sekaligus sedih nyesek gimana gitu lah.

Friendshipnya adalah bagian yang paling nyesek sek sek sek..... nyesek paraaahhhh deh sumpaaahh... Coba aja deh bayangkan kalo lo misalnya punya temen baik, bener2 bestfriend lo bener2 deh dari lo smp sma kuliah, udh lama banget lo temenan sama dya, lo percaya bgt bgtan sama dya, keluarga lo udh deket bgt sama dya, lo udah nganggep dya sebagai bagian hidup lo, udh dianggep keluarga sendiri, sahabatan bgt deh pokoknya, tapi dya ternyata bener2 nusuk lo dari belakang dan bahkan ternyata selama ini dya itu bener2 ga menganggap lo teman yang baik, sedangkan lo udah ngasih semuanya buat dya. Bener2 sayang sama dya sepenuh hati. weiihhh parah ituuuu.. Kacau parahnya pooolll..... Nah itu dya yang dialami sama shin ji hyun, temen deketnya sendiri, yang bener2 dekeeeettt bgt, Shin ji hyun tuh baik bgt, keluarganya shin ji hun juga baik bgt, nguliahin si in jung karena in jung tuh waktu itu ada masalah perekonomian, ngijinin in jung tinggal brg sm ji hyun dan keluarganya, udh dianggep anaknya sendiri sama papanya ji hyun, udah dikasih hati eh malah minta jantung. Bagus bgt sih itu jahatnya. In jung ngirim pacarnya buat deketin ji hyun, rencananya cuma sampe ji hyunnya tunangan sama Kang min ho, biar dapetin perusahaan papanya ji hyun. Itu lebih parah dari selingkuh. Terus sempet ada dialog si in jung ngmg gni ke ji hyun yg lgi minjem tubuh song yi kyung: "Kalo Ji Hyun bisa ngasih segalanya buat gw, dya bisa juga dong, ngasih tunangan sama perusahaannya buat gw." Jleeeeeeeeeppppp ..... satu kata buat in jung: PARAH.

Bagian tentang kehidupannya disini gw ambil dari sisi song yi kyung, dya frustasi parah gara2 ditinggal mati pacarnya yang bener2 dya sayang bgt, cinta sejatinya dya. Dia coba buat bunuh diri, berkali kali tapi ga berhasil. Sedangkan si Ji hyun, yang dalam keadaan koma berusaha untuk bangun dari komanya, berusaha untuk hidup lagi, dengan cara nyari 3 orang yang mau tulus nangis buat dya. Jadi tuh bener2 ada 2 kondisi yang saling berlawanan, yang 1 mau mati, yang 1nya lagi pengen bgt hidup. Disini kita belajar arti hidup sesungguhnya. selagi kita masih punya waktu untuk hidup, selama kita masih diberikan kesempatan sama Tuhan buat hidup di dunia, tolong banget, dipergunakan dengan sebaik-baiknya, jangan pernah nyia2in karunia anugerah terbesar yang telah diberikan Tuhan buat kita, yaitu Kehidupan. Jangan pernah menyia2kan hidup kita. Karena seberapapun beratnya hidup kita, Tuhan pasti punya Jalan Keluar dari segala apapun masalah di kehidupan kita. Believe it. Hiduplah seakan ini hari terakhirmu untuk hidup. Gunakan setiap detik waktu yang ada di hidupmu dengan sebaik mungkin, karena kita gak akan pernah tau kapan waktu hidup kita itu habis. Kita gak akan pernah tau kapan hidup kita ini berakhir. Jangan sampe kita menyesal. Ingatlah, kalo penyesalan itu selalu datang belakangan. Gak ada yang namanya penyesalan datang dluan. Kita gak akan pernah balik ke waktu kita sekarang karena itulah kehidupan. Seberapapun kita ingin mengulangi kehidupan kita yang lalu, itu gak akan pernah terjadi. Inget itu baik-baik. Makanya pergunakanlah waktu hidup sebaik mungkin. Lakukanlah yang terbaik, berikan yang terbaik yang bisa kita lakukan. Do the best, Give the best for your life... Once you leave it, you will never come back to the past.

Yang terakhir adalah bagian family. Iya ini film tuh yaaa bener2 buat gw terharu sama papanya ji hyun yang bener2 sayang sama anaknya, Dia nolak operasi tumornya dan dia bilang kalo dia pengen jadi orang yang pertama meluk ji hyun pas ji hyun bangun dari komanya, padahal dokter juga udah bilang kalo kemungkinan buat ji hyun untuk sadar dari koma sgtlah kecill.. aaaaa.... so sweet bgt......

Itulah pendapat gw tentang 49 days ini. ga nyesel banget nntn film ini, tadinya gw ga mau nntn film ini karena gw mikir ini film khayalan bgt, ga realistis udh gitu 20 episode, menurut gw cukup lama dan bakal ngebosenin tapi ternayata gw salah totaaalll..... Bener2 ini film ngajarin banyak hal. Saluutt bgt sama film ini.

Really Abstract

2012-01-18T20:43:00.000-08:00

Ini sebenernya gw udah pengen ngeposting kayak gini akhir 2011 kemarin.. tapi berhubung ya berhubung ga ad waktu kali apa gak ada mood buat nulis gitu.. Jadinya sekarang aja deh. Langsung mulai ke inti topik yukk..
Di tahun 2011 lalu, gw dan beberapa orang di skitar gw mengalami beberapa kali ngeliat yang ga jelas.. Sebenernya dimulai dri tahun 2010 apa 2009 gitu deh.. gw denger suara hihihi.. dri rumah kosong yg ada di tgh2 perumahan gw.. Perumahan gw itu emang ada di samping kompleks kuburan yang gedenya lumayan gede. Tapi rumah gw itu.. yang ga pas di deket kompleks kuburan itu... Jd istilahnya di paling blkgnya perumahan jd paling jauuhh dr kuburan2 itu... nah itu intonya laaahh.. jadi kalo gw mau ke rmh gw berarti harus ngelewatin kompleks kuburan itu...

Kasus 1
Bulan December 2011, gw lupa tanggal berapanya
Gw pulang kampus sekitar jam stgh 7 dari kampus gw soalnya ada latihan dance gitu sampe jam 6an terus sisanya ngobrol2 btran.. Itu tuh lagi hujan kondisinya, gerimis rintik2nya lumayan gede ya tp ga deres2 amat.. dan itu hujannya udh lumayan lama lah... dri gw msh latihan dance sampe pulang belum berhenti2... kan gw naik motor kan tuh ke sklh.. pas gw ud mau nyampe rmh, sekitar jarak 3 meter dri rumah kosong yg ada di tgh2 perumahan gw itu.. gw liat ada 2 anak kecil, kecil bgt, pendek gitu kyk sekitar umur 3 thnan.. botak... ga pake baju atasan pula...lgi main2 di pinggiran jalan deket pohon tetehan gitu.. gw heran kan ya.. kok ada anak kecil diijinin gelap2 hujan2 jam 7 main2 di luar ga pake baju atasan pula.. topless gitu deh... gw ga liat bawahannya soalnya mereka tuh mainnya lagi jongkok ber2 gitu... terus gw lambatin motor gw buat ngeliat lbh jelas yg gw liat itu apaan.. terus stlh gw liatin tuh anak, tuh anak ngeliatin gw balik dan what? matanya itu nyala gitu... terus ngeliatin gw kayak mw loncat ke arah gw gitu.. Oh May Goatness..Apa itu yang gw liat? Tuyul? langsung jantung gw berdegup kencenggggg bgt..... deg2an parahhhhh lgsg gw ngebut... tpi hbis itu gw penasaran dan pengen balik buat memastikan apa yg barusan gw liat.. tp gw ga jadi kesana lagi.. hujan2 gitu dan udh mlm soalnya.. tp dari jauh gw ngeliat putih2 gitu deh... wew bgt lah yaaa,,,, terus gw buru2 pulang ke rmh.. ehhhh gw malah dimarahin gara2 plgnya jam 7 lewat.... udh2 deg2an ngeliat begituan pake dimarahin segala.. hhahhaha.. nice bgt lah ya cyiinnn... tpi hbis sesi nykp marah2 gtu.. langsung deh gw ceritain ttg apa yg gw liat tdi... terus kata nykp gw.. kemungkinan sh bener kalo itu tuyul... Masih lanjut dengan deg2an gw... gw mandi dan hbis itu sms tmn gw... gw cerita gituu... terus dya bilang pantes aja hari ini kan kamis malem jumat kliwon.. dy ud ngecek kalender... oh mayyyyy Goattt.... Semoga itu bukan apa2 ya.. oke oke oke

Kasus 2
Ini dialami sama nyokap gw, pas gw UTS kemarin
Bokap gw lagi jalan di ujung jalan gituuu eh nyokap gw ngeliat ad yang gandeng bokap di jalanan gituuu kejadiannya sekitar jam stgh 8an... yg gandeng bkp gw itu cewe... rambutnya panjangggg bgt..... diihhhh apa pula ituuu??? pas balik ke rmh.. ditanyain itu tdi siapa.. ya gak ada siapa2 lah.. org tdi lagi jalan sendiriann.. laluuuu siapa ituuu?

Kasus 3
Dialami oleh Natasya Sheilla, dia itu tetangga gw tapi udah gw anggep sbgai ade gw sendiri, soalnya udh dri dya masih kecil bgt dya udh sering main di rmh gw... hehehehhe
Dya sore2 beli pisang goreng apa gituu di warungnya mbak lastri.. warung mbak lastri itu emang letaknya di seberangnya, yah bs dibilang tepat di dpn rmh kosong itu cuman jaraknya lumayan jauh gitu sebrang2annya.. Kejadiannya maghrib...... dy jalan plg dri warung mbak lastri itu.. dy denger ada suara ringkikan kudaa gitu...terus dy ngeliat ke arah rmh kosong itu.. dy liat cewe rmbut panjang baju putih.. kakinya ngambang .... terus si tasya langsung lari deh ke rmhnya....

Kasus 4
Dialami oleh gw, bokap gw dan nyokap gw...
Gw pulang dri rmh sodara jam stgh 12an.. naik mobil brg nykp bkp... eh pas di rmh kosong itu kita ngeliat cewe pake baju merah rmbtnya sepunggung lmyn pjg lah,,,, bajunya kayak sweater merah ituu lagi duduk di bwh pohon yg ad di rmh kosong itu... terus ngadepnya ngadep rmh kosong itu. aneh bgt deh.... cewe malem2 sendirian duduk ngadep rmh kosong itu... so weirdooo

Kasus 5
Gw alamin Kemarinnn..... 18 Desember 2012
Gw pulang dri UAS jam 6 lwt 20, maghrib2 gitu lah, ngelawatin ananda, ananda itu sklhn yg ad disampingnya kuburan ituu... nah kan ya tuhh.. gw dri jauh ngeliat cewe pake baju putih panjang rmbtnya panjang juga lagi duduk di pintu gerbang kuburan cina... terus gw liatin lagi... makin jelass putihhh bgt bajunya dan rmbtnya item bgt,, terus dy ud ga duduk lagi.. dy ud mulai jalan mw jalan ke jalan raya.... gw ga ngeliat kakinya jadi kayak lagi mau melangkah ke jalanan aja gituu. Oh meeennn.... itu gw langsung ngebut dan ga mau ngeliat ke arah itu lagi.. tp ya itu gw deg2an bgt bgt... gilaaaaa..... aaaaaa.. deg2 seerrrr.. semoga yg gw liat itu bkn apa2... itu orang biasa,... amiinn...

Beneran deh ya... gw ga mau.. bener2 ga mauuu.... diliatin gitu2an... kita damai ya.. hidup dunia masing2.... ga ada yang saling mengganggu.. jangan saling mengganggu... hidup dalam koordinatnya masing2.....
oke,....

Salam Damai

Now

2012-01-14T00:30:00.000-08:00

Life will never be the same.
Do the best in everything.
Build the future from now.
Don't wasting the time, cause it will never come back.
Decrease the sin.
Increase your Faith of GOD.
Decide your decision.

FYI

2011-12-08T05:31:00.001-08:00

This blog is officially made by Me. I love to write about many stories of life and some kinds like that but actually sometimes, i just write what i wanna write. So, the story in this blog not all about me. The things that i've written in this blog is about what I wanna write, what I'm thinking about, my opinion, my imagination and many more. I don't write SARA, or somethings like that, and I don't wanna talking about someone in implicitly. If i wanna talking about my friend i will write her/his name directly in my blog and if necessary i will post her/his photo.

Thank you.
Best Regard From Me.

The Fallen (Pt.1)

2011-12-08T05:22:00.001-08:00

I can see them from here. But they actually can't see me.
I just wanna back to the atmosphere where they live in together.
I wanna get the second chance or maybe my last chance of life.
But, how can i get it?
I'm here.
In different sky.
In different land.
In different air.
I can difference the truth and the lie.
I know everything.
And i hope i can tell everyone to be honest during the rest of their life, because there will no the second chance.
Once you get here, you will never come back.

Weirdo?

2011-12-08T05:13:00.001-08:00

Sometimes i just don't know what i talk, what i say, what i write, because i just do it directly without thinking about it any longer.
I'm not a perfect person, but i can do my best in every aspects in my life.
Sometimes I'm thinking about something that abstract, and see something with my own way of thinking..
Is it weird?
I don't care about people's thinking, just say whatever you want...People can do it.
I choose my way for being me...
If i lose my hope today, I know God have the best plan for my life, more than I expect.

Mixering pt 1 without revision,

2011-09-29T08:46:00.000-07:00

I don't really understand about what happened on my mind. My subconscious always remembering me about all of the good and memorable memories.

I don't care how hard i try to make everything pretending that everything is okay, i can't do that. Maybe many people thinking that i'm the careless person because i act enjoyable and i act nothing happen, in the other side my heart is crying. That is so hurt me. I can't say anything or do anything to proof that i'm not what they said. Because i don't know the way to speak up my side opinion about this thing, and i want to speak up my real characteristic, i can't just follow another people opinion that isn't compatible with my principe which have connection with my life and not everything that happen in my life, i must tell it to another people because i just tell about my life which is common thing or i think another people can make a solution about it. I have the right to manage my own life, because it is my life.

Everyone can speak up their mind about my life and tell me about their opinion, but all of things that become my decision is my right to determine it. And then as long as i'm not disturbing someone's life is okay, and then i do something with ethics. Because people is the most perfect creature that God's create, so that we must do everything with ethics.

See the Rearview Mirror

2011-09-29T08:18:00.002-07:00

I don't know what to say now. All of the things that i do just to pretend that i never know and assumed that is nothing happen. And maybe this make me feel the pain of remember it. I hope i have the delete button in my life, so i could delete some memories that i never want it. And one of the most important button is refresh, refresh my minds for everthing that have happened in my life.

Sometimes when i was driving car or motorcycle, when i want to sleep, and even in my dreams those memories keep coming to my mind and make me review it again and again about all of the things in the past. I can't imagine that all of those had already in the past. I do really begging to God to give me a chance to fix it. To fix everything or change something. I always wondering that it will never happen, and i can stop the time or i hope i can review some moments that i want. But all of that just impossible to happen. I just pretend that I don't know anything. I closed my eyes, my ears, my feelings, my mind, my brain, my desire and everything, just to make my self calm down and think positively, even i know about it. I just pretend that i'm happy and act like i don't feel guilty. The facts are i feel so guilty, feel the pain because even if i dreaming or remembering about it thousand times, i will never rewind the time and come back to that time and the most important thing, i never ever can delete all of those things from my mind.

Oh God, please make me stop keep remembering it, i wanna do my life better, i will never repeat my mistakes again, i will do my best in my life. This the biggest lesson that life teaches me.

I hope i can become a better person from now on.

See the Rearview Mirror

2011-09-29T08:18:00.001-07:00

Oh God, please make me stop keep remembering it, i wanna do my life better, i will never repeat my mistakes again, i will do my best in my life. This the biggest lesson that life teaches me.

I hope i can become a better person from now on.

Long Life journey

2011-07-29T22:54:00.000-07:00

Do you ever feel like hope is gone? Nothing can do...

You've broke all of the hopes and dreams...

You throw them away faraway..

You leave it in somewhere you don't know..

You've lose it... and somehow like you'll never ever get it back..

Random Feeling

2011-07-26T23:08:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to say it with words... i do really miss my high school life. I don't care how many problems inside it, how many painful that i feel, how many silly things that i do, how lazy i am to go to school, how much boredom that i feel during the lesson, i miss all those moments so much. How many i'm begging to replay that time, it will not happen. So now.. I just can be thankful to GOD for what I am now. I am a lawyer now (read: pengacara, pengangguran banyak acara LOL)

My school i mean university will start next month so there still 1 month for holidays. i hope i can do the rest of the time effectively. See ya my blog.. I will write you when i have time and my mood allow me to do it.... LOVE yaa...

Welcome Back

2011-07-26T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hey ya my blog... Long time without updating on you... Do you know how i miss this blog so much? Yes I do miss this blog really that much. This blog really precious for me because i shared my life in online shape with this blog. This blog is a silent witness of my long life journey. I had write all of my silly things, happy things, sad things, absurd things and many more on this blog. How can i forget this blog?

Oh my Goat Time goes so fast... I feel that all of things that had happened in my life is just yesterday but i must realize now that's already end.

First Love

2011-05-02T07:09:00.000-07:00

Loving you is the most wonderful thing in my life.

What is love? Love is you.

When I close my eyes I see you in my mind.

You are my true love, my whole heart.

Nothing can replace you in my heart.

You are successfully make my heart really fall for you.

I've never feel like this before.

This is my first love story.

I do really really falling for you My dearest one.

This is the real love.

Thx God because You give him to me.

You send him for me.

He is the precious thing in my life.

My Apology to all My XII Sc 1 Friends

2010-10-20T07:44:00.001-07:00

Ok, gw disini mau minta maaf atas ketidak sportifan gw tentang hal talent show karena di dalam talent show ini gw gk mau memerankan peran sebagai cewe itu. Ya disini emang gw yang salah, gw gk sportif, harusnya gw yang meranin peran itu tapi nyatanya gw gk mau meranin peran itu. Gw punya alasan kok, kenapa gw g mau meranin peran itu, alasannya itu gw ngerasa gk pantes meranin itu, dan kalo tetep gw yang meranin peran itu gw yakin talent shownya jadi gk bgs bgt (jadi ancur) dan jadinya itu maksa gk jelas gt, dan gw jg g bsa acting2 kyk gitu, meski ada yang bilang, gw cuma harus diem aja dan gk usah ngapa-ngapain ttp aja gw gmw, karena untuk berdiri di tengah-tengah orang2 dengan peran itu, gw bener-bener gk sanggup. Jadi gw bener-bener minta maaf. Dan gw juga berterimakasih buat orang yang udah ngegantiin peran gw…..Thx so much ya…..really really thanks…:D

Kejujuran

2010-06-18T02:17:00.000-07:00

Well, kejujuran itu sesuatu yang penting banget bagi hidup gw.
Pentingnya itu banget banget.
Kenapa gitu?
Soalnya kejujuran itu adalah modal utama untuk hidup sebagai makhluk hidup yang layak disebut manusia.
Jadi kalo kejujuran itu bukan modal hidup utama lo, berarti lo itu sampah.
Menurut gw sh gitu.
Kalo ada yang tersinggung dengan kata-kata gw ini, ya suka-suka lo deh.
Di dunia ini setiap orang bebas berpendapat tentang hal apapun kok.
Okay, balik lagi tentang kejujuran.
Ada prinsip/pepatah : BOHONG DEMI KEBAIKAN.
Menurut gw itu SALAH BESAR.
Gk ada tuh yg namanya Bohong demi kebaikan.
Dimana mana bohong itu salah.
Mw ngeles kayak apapun juga, yang namanya bohong ya tetep salah.
Ya tapi sh itu suka-suka lo yang hidup deh.
Kalo lo mau disebut sebagai manusia yg bkn sampah, ya lo gk bakal melakukan hal itu atau memakai prinsip/pepatah itu di dalam kehidupan lo.
Kecuali kalo lo sampah, ya up to you deh, mau ngebohong kek, jadi penipu kek, atau apalah itu, bkn urusan gw. Ntarnya lo yang ini bakal berurusan sama yang diatas sana.

Gw pengen ngebahas sebentar nh tentang BOHONG DEMI KEBAIKAN yg totally not in my list.
Hmm...didunia ini pasti ada yang pernah bilang gni:"Kalo gw bilang yang sejujurnya, lo pasti bakal........ (tanda titik2 itu bisa diisi dengan kata2 apa aja, for example: mati, gk mau sama gw, bunuh diri, gila, marah2. sedih, sakit hati, dll)."
Tapi semua itu mnurut gw ya gpp, dibangding musti hidup dalam kebohongan mending mati aja.
sepinta-pintar apapun kebohongan itu ditutupi, pasti bakal kebongkar juga suatu saaat.

Disini gw juga gk munafik ya...
Siapa sh orang yg hidup dan dy gk pernah bohong selama hidupnya dy?
Mungkin ada juga yg kayak gitu, tp g sebanyak yg gk kayak gitu.
Faktanya hampir semua orang yang hidup di dunia ini pernah bohong.
Oke, gw sebagai penulis topik ini di blog gw, gw mengaku gw pernah bohong juga.
Tapi kalo gw gk bermoral, gw bakal menggunakan senjata bhong itu dalam byk hal di hidup gw.
Sayangnya gw bukan orang yang dengan mudahnya menggunakan senjata bohong dalam kehidupan gw.
Gw berusaha sebaik mungkin untuk menghindari BOHONG dari hidup gw.
Karena gw gmw DIBOHONGIN.
Karena rasanya DIBOHONGIN itu gk enak.
Karena hidup dalam KEBOHONGAN itu gk tenang.
Karena DIBOHONGIN dan NGEBOHONGIN orang itu sama aja, sama-sama gk enak, sama-sama gk tenang. Dan yang jelas NGEBOHONGIN itu nambah-nambahin dosa.
Dosa kita aja udah banyak, buat apa kita nambah2in dosa dengan BERBOHONG?

Jadi intinya kita sebagai manusia emang gk sempurna, tapi kita bisa melakukan yang terbaik yang kita bisa lakukan selama hidup ini.
Jauhi hidup kita dari BOHONG.

oke...see ya

The Love Life

2010-06-17T09:04:00.000-07:00

Okay, i think it is the best time to really introduce someone who full fill my heart and my mind.
He is my super duper special best friend. Michael Don Bosco.
He is mine since that time, but to tell you the truth i don't know when exactly he is mine for the first time.
But i think it isn't important since I've closed my heart for everyone except him.
My best friend had introduced him to me, or me to him, since i was 10th grader.
Special thanks to my best friend.
So, what makes me want to be his someone?
For sure, i don't know the answer of that question.
Because when the first time i stared his eyes, i feel something different, the feeling that I've never felt before. I just can't explain it.
And then, why do i love him?
I love him without any reasons, because if i can answer that question it proves that i love him with reason, i don't love him if i can answer the reason why do i love him.
There isn't enough words to explain how much i love him.
I just always can try to do my best to prove that I do really love him.
Thanks God to give him as my special present in my 17th birthday.
I will keep him carefully in my life.

Me with him

I'll always try to do my best for you as long as you are worth to treat like that
I'll never betray you as long as you do the same thing to me

Cruel

2010-06-17T08:44:00.000-07:00

I know, life is a cruel thing. And time can answer all of my question.
Sometimes I choose to don't know the real fact than I know it and my heart will be hurt.
Now, what should i believe?
My super best friend? My heart? The real fact? or WHAT?
I don't know what should i believe.
This time i don't know what to do, what to believe, what should i know, who should i trust.
Pretend that i have never been born.
Pretend that i have never being in love.
Pretend that I can go to somewhere that i can get eternal peace.

Run from my problem is totally not me.
Only the time that can answer all of my questions.

Funny things

2010-05-24T05:47:00.000-07:00

It was so ridiculous when i can't stop thinking about it.
It depends of many things.
I don't know what to say but i just know how stupid i am to always thinking about it without knowing the other side was thinking about me too or no.
I shouldn't thinking of it as much as these.
I must erase it step by step.
It just don't care about me, so why do i should care about it?
It was the best damn thing (judul lagu mah itu, bodo lah)
It doesn't even know what am i doing, what problem that i have, what condition i am, and etc.
Thanks to made me feel like this.

Another Stories

2010-05-14T07:16:00.000-07:00

Seems so different now, yeah i don't know exactly what's that.
But i just know that, i don't know about your mind.
I think you did it twice...
haahhaha
I can't understand you.

Whatever

2010-05-02T02:42:00.000-07:00

Forgive someone, yes i did it.
But the hurt is still give me pain.
That's so hard to remove the hurt from me.
You betrayed me.
ckckck.
You are so damnly annoying.
I believe you a hundred percent, and what did you do?
You betray me.
Thanks for the betraying.

Untitled

2010-05-01T08:58:00.000-07:00

Don't know what to say now.
Don't know what to do now.
Don't know what i feel now.
Don't know anything.

Nothing can make me happy
Nothing can make my life better
Nothing can change it
Nothing to do

I just lose my spirit to life

I'm true

2010-05-01T08:40:00.000-07:00

Ok, the fact is damnly enough for me to suffering.
This life so Wonderful right?
hahahha
Jadi itu, pantes aj gw bad feeling dr seminggu kmrin itu, bad feelingnya datang dan pergi.
Ternyata tuh itu ada hubungannya sama fakta yang gw ketahui hari ini.
LOL
Ternyata feeling gw bner lho ya...:D
Bad feeling itu bukan karena PMS atau gwnya yang Nethink
Gw sh nganggepnya cuma perasaan gw aj yang aneh, eh ternyata itu tuh bkn sekedar perasaan aj.
hahahhaha...
Kalo mau tau rasanya gmn?
hmmm gmn ya...rasanya gk enak sama sekali....hahhahahha
gw nulis hahaha, tp ekspresi gw sama sekali gk lg ketawa.ckckckckcck
lg menderita kali..gtw ah..hahhaha

kalo gk ada lo sama ada lo sama aj, apa gunanya dnk lo ada?

kalo dengan adanya lo buat gw jadi ancur moodnya, lw bner2 gk guna dnk.

hahhahaha...
ketawa aj dh gw

Ok, Fine

2010-04-30T04:20:00.000-07:00

Buat apa ada lo kalo ada lo dan gk ada lo itu sama aja bagi hidup gw?
Kalo ada lo dan gk ada lo sama aj buat gw, buat ap dnk lo ad?
Gk guna ya lo.
Damnly annoying lo.
Mau lo ap ya?
Nyebelin bgt, pnya kaca gk sh lo di rmh?
Kayaknya semuanya sama aj deh ya.
Capek gw.
hwhwhwhw
Lo buat diri lo yang seolah salah, pdahal jelas2 lo yang salah
What the Hell you are?
Jerk....

Damnly ANNOYING

2010-04-30T04:17:00.000-07:00

raawwwrrrr
hoammmmmmmm............
eueuuuuuuuhhhh
i'm in a very bad mood, need someone to talk to, need someone to hangout to some places
i need that now...
okay?
just need breathing with new oxygen
Damn it lah...
All of things in my life become worst, and i don't want to life anymore
I don't have any reasons to life anymore
I just want to take a rest, or maybe close my eyes until whenever
Hahahhahahhaha

Long long time

2010-04-01T10:11:00.000-07:00

It's been months or years without any updates in this blog.
Long time without any words.
But now i want to type some parts of my life.
Now, my life just ordinary. Doesn't have any differences from last year.
Just like usual. Everything is alright as long as i close my eyes.
Hmmm... I do something like i don't want to do anything again.

Gado-gado mix with rujak

2009-12-29T09:17:00.000-08:00

Really don't know about it.
What should i do?
Now, I just hope: I can erase my presence in this world.
-_-
all of these out of my control.
I will not run from all of these.
I must face up all of these.
And i just hope the final is.........
GAME OVER

I want to explain

2009-12-27T00:12:00.000-08:00

To all my lovely readers...
All the postings that I've made isn't for anyone, it just something that inside my mind, and i just write it in this blog..
Please don't be Misunderstanding,
Thank you..:D

Si vous connaissez cette

2009-12-26T09:21:00.000-08:00

मैं तुम्हें पहले प्यार करता हूँ, और यह वास्तव में अब अंत है. कृपया मेरे फैसले का सम्मान और हम अपना नया प्यार मिल जाए, मैं तो तुम को दोषी महसूस यदि आप एक नए (नया प्यार) नहीं है, चलो अपने नए प्यार लगता है. एक साथ नहीं हो सकता है मैं तुम्हारे साथ, कृपया समझता हूँ. हाँ मैं तुमसे प्यार करता था पिछले साल, लेकिन, अब अलग है. मैं तुम्हें अपनी भावना को मिटा दिया है, यहाँ तक कि यह बहुत मुश्किल है, मैं पहले से ही ऐसा है, और मैं सफल रहा हूँ यह मेरे दिल से मिटा. कृपया मत करो मैं तुम्हें फिर से प्यार करता हूँ. क्योंकि मेरे और आप असंभव है. चलो अपना नया प्यार मिल. और हम एक अच्छी दोस्ती हो सकता है.

suka2 lw deh mau ngasih judul ap

2009-12-26T08:53:00.000-08:00

gmn ya?bingung juga nh gw jadinya...
gw cuma mau nulis...
tapi gw juga bingung nh, mau nulis apa ya enaknya?
hmmm gni aj deh, gmn ya...aduh gtw deh ya...
apa deh bgt ya gw?
sebenernya ap ya?
hmmm, gw bngung,
gni deh gw cuma mau bilang, please dnk, jgn anggep gw apalah gitu, atau sbgainya lah....
gtw kan sebenernya gw tuh gmn atau apa lah...
jd ya udhlah, keputusan gw emg gitu, dan gmn ya, agak gk enak juga sh bilangnya, tp ya itu keputusan gw.
That's my decision...
Please respect that, OKE?
gw gtw lg musti bilang apa dan kayak gmana, tp please lah.....
Don't be mad at me....
gw emg cuma seorang yg jauh dari sempurna, yang biasa2 aj, yg gk bsa jadi yang kayak diharapkan itu.,
oke, I know that i'm little bit different than the other...
oke, mungkin emg gw aneh, atau gmn lah..beda dari yang lain.
tp itu keputusan gw juga dnk, untuk beda dari yang lain...
gw gmw jd ada kesalah pahaman dan lain sebagainya, gw pengen ttp semuanya kayak biasa...
ya gw tau dan mengakui, kalo gw emg memiliki daya tangkap yang agak lambat atau memang lambat dalam hal tertentu, because nobody perfect..jd ya., please understand me because nobody same, gk ad org yg sama, dan gw kebetulan lambatnya dalam hal itu..jd ya, gmn lg..
gw udh berusaha utk gk lambat ttg hal itu, tp yg jelas gw udh berusaha melakukan yang terbaik yang gw bisa...oke lah..
postingan kali ini, mungkin emang bener2 gk jelas amat sangat,
and it isn't part of my life
jd gw gk ngelabel-in posting gw kali ini, sbgai salah satu posting bagian My life

kalo yg baca ini, tolong, please, anggep aj postingan ini gk pernah ada, dan tulisan itu cuma, tulisan biasa yg gk ada pentingnya dan artinya sama sekali,.
jadi anggap saja, postingan ini tidak pernah ada..hyahahhaa

Don't be Exaggerate

2009-12-26T08:32:00.000-08:00

OK, sabar itu ada batasnya...:D
ok, gw mau menekankan sesuatu yang berlebihan itu GK BAIK.
gw tekankan sekali lagi:GK BAIK.
terlalu sedih, gk baik.entar bisa berlarut2 dalam kesedihan dan ssh buat bangkit.
terlalu senang, gk baik juga.entar bisa lupa daratan.
terlalu membenci seseorang, gk baik.karena bisa menimbulkan iri, dendam, dan lain sebagainya, bahkan bisa jadi cinta.
terlalu mencintai seseorang, gk baik juga.karena bisa membuat gila, dan bersikap terlalu terobsesi dengan sesuatu itu, sehingga kita tidak peduli dgn apapun, sehingga apapun cara akan dilakukan untuk mendapatkan hal itu, gk peduli cara itu membahayakan atau tidak, atau juga bisa menimbulkan rasa benci.
terlalu sabar juga gk baik. entar bisa diinjek2 (bahasanya agak sarkas)
terlalu jadi orang baik, jgn juga, ntar bisa dimanfaatkan.
terlalu jahat juga jangan, karena anda akan menerima efek buruk dr tindakan kejahatan yg anda buat.
pokoknya sesuatu yang berlebihan itu TIDAK BAIK.
Jadi sikapilah sesuatu hal dengan tidak berlebihan.
mau lw dapet duit sejuta dollar kek, atau orang yang paling lw cintai sedunia mati di hadapan mata lw, atau apa kek gitu yang enak, yg penting, kuncinya adalah DON'T BE EXAGGERATE
oke oke...

KDM

2009-12-23T08:48:00.000-08:00

What's KDM?
KDM is Kampus Diakonia Modern
In KDM many of street children live at there.
I've visited that place last week.
I saw many of street children at there.
For the beginning, I was rather ill feel with them, because they were so noisy.
I don't know their inside.
I just judge them from their cover.

And then, for the next session, me and my group went around that place and some of them became our tour guides.
Me and my friends went around that place, they told many things about their live and habitual.

They life happily at there, they are happy with their own way, they can feel the happiness eventhough they haven't any money, parents or something that i have.
But they still can feel the happiness of life.
I feel something that i've never feel before, a great happiness that come from the pure heart.
Maybe they haven't anything but they still happy with their life, eventhough they are in bad condition.
That proves, the money isn't everything.

Another creation

2009-12-17T23:15:00.000-08:00

Part of my life

2009-12-17T22:43:00.001-08:00

Long time without posting something new to this blog.
Soalnya kemarin-kemarin itu internet gw mokat alias mati.
Ah gila bgt itu, internet gw mati selama kurang lbh 1 blnan gitu deh.
And you know what?I can't life without Internet...absolutely yes...
Internet is one of the most important thing of my life.
One of many parts of my life.
Kedengerannya sh emang exaggerate tp ini beneran lho sumpah deh.
Jiwa gw itu ngerasa HAMPA bgt gk ada internet.

Rasanya di hidup gw itu ada yang kurang atau bahkan ilang gitu.
Padahal kan ya, gw juga bisa buka internet di HP.
But for me, buka internet di hp itu bukan buka internet yang sesungguhnya, dan buat gw gk cukup kalo cuma buka internet di hp.
Pokoknya gw udh addicted bgt sama yang namanya INTERNET.
Internet itu udh kayak apaan aja, bener2 g bsa hidup tenang tanpa internet.
Gak ada internet udh kayak mati suri aja deh gw.
Gw ngerasa seakan mati suri waktu gk ada internet, mati info gw.

Yang biasanya gw update sama internet, tiba2 gk update lg gara2 internet mati.
Yang biasanya gw pulang sekolah ada internet, buka apalah gitu, jadi gk.
Yang biasanya gw chatting msn pake internet komputer, jadi cuma ol di hp.
Yang biasanya gk ada yang bisa menghentikan gw untuk gk ol dalam keadaan apapun, jd gk bisa gitu lagi.
Yang biasanya gw selalu main internet sampe tgh malem eventhough bsknya UN atau UAS, jd gk, cuma buka twitter biar sedikit update. (kalo dihitung dalam persen, cuma 2% aja updatenya).

Pokoknya masa2 gw gk ada internet kemarin, masa2 tersuram gw deh, ya bisa disebut masa gw lagi mati suri, mati info.
Hidup tuh gk berasa hidup yang sesungguhnya tanpa internet.
Ya gw masih beruntung kemarin soalnya masih bisa liat lewat hp, meski ya.....begitulah..you knowlah..
Tapi ya udahlah, yang penting masa-masa itu telah berlalu.

Mungkin readers yang baca postingan gw yang kali ini, udh eneg bgt atau bahkan udh mau muntah gara2 isi postingan ini yang kebanyakan *ralat: semuanya isinya tentang KEGILAAN GW terhadap INTERNET.
But, that's the fact that I can't life without it.
Ya atau, hidup gw ada yang kurang kalo gk ada internet.

My life become un-complete if there isn't you in my life.
(that's for my internet..:D)

lalalalala la la ...nanannanananna, huahahhahahaha

2009-11-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

Who are them?

Someone who i liked to use it for my photo editing. (more than enough: approximately 1 year)

The First person who i liked to use it for my photo editing. (Many years enough: 5 years)

Third person who i liked to use it as my photo editing. (exceedingly enough: almost 1 year, but actually not until 1 year, only for few months, because i don't like it's pose)

Actually they have their own gender, name, and story, but i really don't want to put its name in this blog, why?because they are my own business and privacy, so better if i never put their name and information about them. Never, it will be ever if i want to do it.

Life love love life life love love life

2009-11-07T07:37:00.000-08:00

Now, young generations love to talk about their own love life.
For me it's nvm, because every body has their own right to feel the love.
But sometimes i feel confuse with love, why?
Because many people that love each other and than hate each other too, How come?
From love became hate. It's so curious.
But many things Better than Love.
So don't just think about it, many thinks better than it..:D

Papi pulang

2009-11-07T06:09:00.000-08:00

Yey, akhirnya bokap gw pulang ke rmh lagi.
Nepatin janjinya, bkalan plg dengan kondisi bagus..:D
Gw bersyukur bgt sama Tuhan, karena udh ngasih kesempatan buat kita semua utk kumpul bersama2 lagi...:D
Gw sekarang lebih bersyukur lagi dalam menjalani hidup, :D
Kalo emang waktunya belum mati, pasti belum mati kok....

At this point

2009-11-05T05:37:00.000-08:00

At this point i feel so tired to life. I don't why i feel like this, but this is the truth of my life.
I feel so empty.I don't have any reason to life.
Gw ngerasa cape bgt sama semua yang ada di hidup ini, entah kenapa, tp gw percaya Tuhan punya rencana lain sehingga Dia ngijinin gw masih hidup di dunia ini.
Gw bersyukur buat segalanya yang ada di hidup gw.
At this point i want to go somewhere that can make me full of peace..:D
Pas bgn tidur gw kyk ngerasa lg hidup di mimpi buruk.
Knp gtu ya?
Gk ngerti deh gw..banyak hal di dunia ini yang bsa untuk dimengerti tp sulit untuk di jelaskan dgn kata2.
semga semuanya bsa berubah jd baik...:D
Positive thinking inget The Secret..hahahha...meski gk ada hubungannya...:Pada juga deh..:D
huh.....
Kemarin rabu atau selasa papi operasi jantung dimskin 2 ring ke jtgnya....pas operasi sempet berhenti jantungnya, tp untungnya sekarang udh membaik...:D
tp livernya...huhu....
semoga aja gk kanker hati,...amin..
cuman ada virus biasa aja....dan bsa sembuh cepet...:D
amin....

My life

2009-10-23T05:29:00.000-07:00

Kehidupan gw akhir-akhir ini bisa dikatakan: unpredictable and that's so complicated.
Why?
Because that's many things that have already Happened.
Start with

My family
gk disangka bokap gw sakit, dan ngedrop tiba2. Tiba2 sakit parah, dan gw baru tau pas akhir2 ini. Sakitnya itu udh parah lagi. Sakit komplikasi gitu deh. Sakit jantung, livernya ada virusnya, siriosis atau soriosis (lupa yg bner yg mane), asam urat, sama cairan sinovial yg ada di persendiannya udh kering atau bisa dibilang abis. Jujur kalo yang soal ini, gw gtw harus ngmg apa dan gw harus bagaimana, yg jelas waktu untuk bokap gw supaya bisa balik lagi kyk dlu itu g cepet. Butuh waktu yg lama. It takes a long time. Jadi ya bkp gw gk bsa kerja dlu. Dan kondisi ini membuat gw sebagai anak satu2nya dari bkp gw ngerasa mempunyai tanggung jawab yg besar untuk ngeback up dy sebagai tulang punggung keluarga. And it's not easy.
Nyokap gw sedih bgt tentunya, dan kalo nykp tau kalo gw juga SEBENERNYA sedih, dya bakal tmbah sedih lagi pastinya. Jadi ya gw pasang wajah cerita di rumah. Pas hari minggu kemarin kan gw kaget tuh, tau2 gw pulang2nya dari bogor bkp lgsng ngedown bgt hari minggunya, mlmnya gw nangis bgt bgt, dan ortu gw tau, mreka jadi ikutan sedih, gw gmw mereka ngeliat gw sedih dan jadi tmbah sedih makanya gw gk pernah nangis lagi depan mereka. Sesedihnya atau seburuk-buruk apapun perasaan gw, gw gk boleh pasang Sad Face, and always smile :D in front of them. Gw rela bokap gw kerja sampe malem sibuk bgt sampe gk punya waktu buat gw kyk tahun2 lalu, gw rela se rela relanya kok, gpp kok, gw ikhlas, asalkan jangan sakit kyk gni. Gk tega gw. Bner2 gk tega ngeliat bkp gw sakit kyk gitu.
Tadi pas di pljrn biologi gw sempet berpikir apa gw tukeran jantung aja ya sama bokap gw, gw gk tega ngeliat bkp gw kyk gitu. huh....
Seburuk-buruknya keadaan orang tua kalian, hormatilah mereka karena merekalah yang diberi tanggung jawab oleh Tuhan untuk menghadirkan kalian di dunia ini, dan saatnya nanti mereka udah gk ada, jangan pernah menyesali perbuatan yg kalian telah lakukan kepada mereka karena pada saatnya itu penyesalan udh gk ada gunanya lagi jadi.....Berbuat baiklah kepada mereka sepanjang mereka masih ada di dunia ini :D.

My Lovelife
Explain with one sentence: I Hope that I Have a Place in Your Heart too. (meski sebenernya udh hopeless bgt dan emg udh gk ada harapan lagi) And don't ask anything about this ya..hehehe :D

My Friends
Seperti yang udh gw pernah bilang di postingan2 sebelumnya, I still trust you till the end.
I love you all of my best friends. All of you are the best for me. Makasih bgt atas semuanya.
Meski ya setiap relationship itu gk heran kalo ada masalah. Ya kadang emang ada masalah, gk bisa dipungkiri kalo sepanjang kita semua temenan semuanya itu berjalan dengan mulus2 aja ya, pasti ada masalah2 di tengah2 pertemanan kita semua. Mungkin kalimat yang tepat buat all of my best friends saat ini adalah: Everything is different now. Gw gtw apa yang membuat perbedaan itu kentara banget. Jujur aja gw gmw kyk gni. Gw pengen semuanya kembali kayak dlu lagi. Kita semua bisa sama2, ngumpul sama2, ketawa sama2, gw gilaan2 sama kalian semua rame2, tp kenapa semuanya jadi gni ya?Gw mau kita balik kyak dlu lagi, entah gimana caranya. gw pengen semuanya kembali kyk dlu lagi. Mungkin atau gk mungkin, gw gk peduli yg penting gw mau kyk dulu lagi, agak egois sh kalo gw memaksakan kehendak itu. Tapi bener deh, sedih ngeliat kita separated kyk gni deh. Gk ada yang salah dalam hal ini, tp emg mungkin kondisinya itu emg udh gk mungkin lagi. Tapi Nothing impossible in this world so make it possible. I hope everthing is gonna be alright with our friendship. I don't want to lose our friendship. This friendship is so precious for me. Mungkin ya emg gw banyak salah juga, dan setiap dari kita semuanya juga punya kekurangan lah, tapi gw harap semuanya itu bisa ngerecover atau saling nebackup kekurangan satu sama lain. Soalnya gw yakin kalo kita semua sama2 bakal lebih baik dibanding kita sendiri. Ya mungkin emg gk semuanya berpikiran kayak gw. Tapi gw harap cobalah untuk together lagi. Nobody's perfect. Jadi ya gw mohon semua masalah bisa selesai dengan baik lah. Aduh gw gk tahan nh kalo udh ngmgin sahabat gni. Jujur aja, gw bukan seorang yang perfect untuk dibilang sebagai YOUR BFF tapi seengaknya gw akan mencoba untuk melakukan yang terbaik yang gw bisa, kalian juga ya....I hope it soooooooooooooo much.
Gimanapun keadaannya sekarang I love all of you till the end. Semoga kita semua bisa jadi orang yang lebih baik lagi dari hari ke hari.

My activity
I'm out from dance. Oh God....I really love dance but this condition of my life make me to quit or off from dance for a moment. Pdahal lagi byk job, hhuhu...sedih gk bsa latian brg2 lagi sama kalian. Love you all my dance friends, Good luck ya for your next performance, I hope i can join with all of you again. I hope it so much.

My school
So sucks.....parah bgt nh sekolah gw, membuat gw tambah gk mood buat menjalani hidup.
Tau gk kenapa?
Rulesnya sekolah gw itu gk penting bgt deh ya....
Apaan tuh nyita2 hp segala, ke wc harus make atau bawa kalung wc, kayakanya CUMA DI GLOBAL deh yang kayak gitu.
Gk boleh bawa alat make up (CUMA BAWA GK DIPAKE)
Gk boleh bawa novel atau komik meski gk dibaca.
Gk boleh bawa IPOD
Hp harus dikumpulin tiap pagi, diambil pas plg sklh.
terus sekarang katanya rulesnya mau diganti lagi deh, jadi boleh pegang hp pas istirahat kedua, tapi sblmnya harus tanda tangan kontrak perjanjian apa gitu yang sumpah deh gk penting bgt.
Apa deh bgt ya kan ya?
CUMA DI GPS nh yang rulesnya so riddiculous kayak gini.
Tadinya yg bkin gw masih agak pnya semangat hidup itu ya sekolah, soalnya buat masa depan gw nantinya, eh tiba2 jadi gk enak gni kondisi sekolahan gw. Oh...
gk enak bgt ya,,,,
menambah berkurangnya semangat hidup gw yg udh berkurang bgt ini.

Gw harap hari esok akan lebih baik dari hari dalam hidup gw belakangan ini :D
Have a nice day :D

Masalah, masalah dan masalah

2009-10-12T07:24:00.000-07:00

Argh, masalah gk henti2nya ada ya di kehidupan ini.
Malesin bgt tau gk sh. ah ih eh..
heh.....
hmmm...
Jujur, gw cape....
Jujur, gw udh males sama semua ini....
Jujur, males bgt gw...
Jujur, gw pengen pergi ke suatu tempat dimana gw gk bakal menemukan masalah biarpun udh dicari-cari masalah itu....
aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
males

I don't know

2009-10-01T07:06:00.000-07:00

Gk ngerti deh nh jadinya....hemmm....
ad ap sh sbnrnya?
jadi kayak orang yg gtw ap2 deh...
Jadi merasa yang tertinggal jadi merasa yang terbelakang jadi merasa gk dianggap.
Tapi anehnya gw merasa bersalah..
Ada ap sh yg bener?
Jujur dong, ad ap nh?
Apapun itu bilang aj, gw bsa menerima ap adanya itu kok.
Udah jujur aj...
I trust you, so please trust me too.

Complicated

2009-10-01T05:49:00.000-07:00

Ih...hidup gw lg complicated nh..pdahal td pagi gk kenapa2 deh..
Ditamabah lagi tiba2 ortu berubahlah....jadi aneh bgt....
grrr...
aduh...kayaknya udah gk ad tempat lagi buat gw cerita2 tentang masalah hidup gw nh...
Gak tau kenapa gw ngerasa udh gk ad tempat...kalo misalnya pun ada...
Kalo ada pun...i think...it doesn't work....
Yang ada malah memperburuk suasana gw...argh.....
Kenapa sh jadi gini?
Kemarin tuh semuanya masih baik2 aja....Gak kayak gni...
Kenapa sh hari ini?
Aduh..kok dari yang gak ada masalah apa2 jadi ada masalah aneh kyk gni.
Gw males bgt deh kalo kayak gini.
Gw itu pengen hidup bahagia tenang aman damai dan tentram.
Situasi yang gw pengenin tuh bukan situasi hidup yang kayak gini.
Semoga semuanya getting better deh.
Gw gk nyuruh lw jadi kayak gw, tapi tuh seengaknya ngertiin dikit dnk posisi gw.
Mau jadiin gw apaan sh?
Cape tau gk sh kayak gini melulu.
Ngerti dong...

Lebaran

2009-09-19T04:01:00.000-07:00

Hore, lebaran bentar lagi, entah bsk atau bsk lusa, yang jelas, lebaran sebentar lagi.hahahha
Nyokap gw kan orang jawa, sedangkan bokap gw orang china, jadi gw ikut merayakan 3 hari besar, yaitu: lebaran, natalan, dan imlekan.
Jadi pas lebaran, ya gw ikutan lebaran. Ikutan lebaran tapi gk ikutan puasa.hehe
Kalo pas natalan, ya emang itu hari besar agama gw, jadi ya gw pasti merayakannya.
Pas imlekan, gw juga ikutan dapet angpao, :D. Soalnya udah jadi kyk tradisi org china, tiap imlekan bagi2 angpao.

Oh ya barusan di tetapkan kalo lebarannya itu besok, jadi hari ini, atau malam ini adalah malam takbiran.
Udah jadi tradisi atau kebiasaan bagi gw, setiap lebaran dateng ke rmh sodara gw yang merayakannya.
Nah, yang paling gw senengin pas lebaran itu adalah opor ayam dan ketupatnya bude gw, rasanya pas bgt. Enak deh pokoknya.
Oh ya, berhubung kebanyakan yang merayakan lebaran di keluarga gw itu adalah sodara yang dari nyokap gw, yang kebetulan asli jawa, gw mau gmw disuruh belajar sungkeman pake bahasa jawa, sama dikit2 ngomong bahasa jawa.

Dari jauh2 hari sebelum lebaran, gw udah diajarin buat sungkeman.
Pertama kali gw latihan sungkeman, gw disuruh sungkeman ke panci, kata nyokap gw:"anggep aja panci itu adalah mbah gw." oke deh...
Kedua, gw latihannya disuruh sungkeman sama kardus.
Nah yang ketiga, gw latihan sungkeman sama bokap gw.
Dan hari ini gw dateng ke rmh bude gw dan disana gw latihan sungkeman langsung ke mbah gw.
Parahnya, gw lupa kata2 yang musti gw ucapkan pas lagi sungkeman.
Ya gpplah, namanya juga latihan.
Yang jelas, besok gw musti lancar sungkemannya biar bisa makan ketupat dll dengan damai dan tentram.
Amin.

Dora the Explorer

2009-09-19T03:00:00.000-07:00

Dora.....
Gw suka bgt sama Dora, pas gw kelas 6 SD. Hehehe.
Agak cacat sh untuk anak umur 11 thn yang masih sangat menyukai Dora.
Gw dulu tuh bener2 ngefans dora bgt bgt deh, entah apa sebabnya dan entah bagaimana caranya.
Gw suka Dora awalnya dari rumah sodara gw.
Jadi gni, gw lagi ada di rumah sodara gw, nah sodara gw itu yang seumuran gw punya ade yang masih kecil, umur 5 thnan gitu deh.
Nah dia tuh lagi nonton Dora, disitu deh gw pertama kalinya kenal sama yang namanya Dora The Explorer.
Sejak saat itu gw tergila-gila sama Dora, sampe punya bonekanya..hahaha
Eh kalo dipikir2 boneka Dora itu serem deh. Soalnya Kepalanya boneka Dora itu pasti Lebih besar dibanding badannya Dora sendiri.
Boneka Dora yang asli emang kepalanya lebih gede dibanding badannya, kalo yang palsu, kebanyakan sh kepalanya.kecil(buset dah, gw merhatiin banget, ampe bisa bedain yang mana yang palsu sama yang mana yang asli, hahaha)

Gw tiba2 keinget sama Dora lagi gara2 tadi pagi gw nonton Dora the Explorer Secara Tidak Sengaja. Tiba2 pas gw buka TV pagi2, ada Dora, jadinya ya gw nonton Dora deh, tadi tuh ceritanya tentang Dora nangkep bintang2 gitu deh. Disitu gw mikir, kok kayaknya Dora tuh enak banget ya hidupnya, setiap hari dia jalan2 terus ke berbagai tempat, terus pas lagi kesusahan pasti ada jalan keluarnya, ada yang bantuin setiap kesulitan, terus umurnya gk nambah2, gk perlu sekolah, terus hidupnya bahagia selalu, happily ever after deh gitu. Di setiap episodenya Dora selalu berakhir bahagia deh, always happy ending. Mana ada coba episode Dora, dimana Doranya kesulitan terus akhirnya frustasi dan endingnya dia mati bunuh diri, kyknya gk ada deh. Kalo ada itu berarti gk akan ada Dora lagi, dan berarti tamatlah riwayat Dora The Explorer.

Oke, Selain Dora the Explorer, gw juga Tanpa Sengaja nonton Barbie Diaries.
Disitu gw juga berfikir, tokoh Utama Barbie dalam setiap season atau setiap cerita yang berbeda2 pasti tokoh utamanya menang deh, gk pernah kalah, kalaupun kalah cuma kalah di awal aja, pokoknya pada akhirnya happy ending juga deh.
Kapan gitu ya ada episode barbie atau dora yang akhirnya mereka mati bunuh diri atau di bunuh orang atau menyedihkan gitu akhirnya??

Become Crazy

2009-09-14T03:09:00.000-07:00

Yeah...:D
My Scores in every lesson getting down and down.
It's make me feel very happy to enjoy my life.
I'm understand in every lesson.
For example: Physic Lesson.
Physic lesson is the easiest lesson in this world for me.
Last my physic exam was so easy, i can do it without OPEN MY EYES.
It was the easiest exam that i've ever done.
I think, every person in this world can do that.
Even the idiot person, can do my last physic exam.

Okay that's all.
It Doesn't True.

The truth is I'm almost crazy with my scores.

It makes me feel so bad.
And couldn't enjoy my life anymore.
Everything become bad, maybe really bad.
But I believe that everything will gonna be alright, if we believe with ourself.
The failed score, isn't everything, failed score is the starting to get the truth Successful (by:Gendis Freyona).

Today's Story

2009-09-09T04:53:00.000-07:00

Ternyata cuma mereka yang bisa ngapusin rasa cape dan suntuk gw menghadapi segala macam hal. Bener2 bisa melepaskan segala penat di hati dan pikiran.
Tadi, sehabis pulang, Tika main ke rumah gw. Terus kita main2 deh di rmh gw.
Pertama kita jalan2 nyari ice cream, nah setelah udah ketemu, kita makan deh bareng2.
Nyampe di rmh gw lagi, kita ngobrol2 dhe sama tika, dan my mother.
Kan gw punya tetangga orang bali yang agamanya hindu tuh, gw sh berniat pengen ngenalin anaknya yang cowo yang udh kuliah sekarang ke tmn gw itu, tapi kyknya tadi orangnya gk ada deh.

Tapi orang bali itu punya byk anjing yang lucu.
Tadinya tujuan gw ke rmh orang bali itu, mau ngenalin tmn gw sama anak bali itu, tapi gk ada jadinya kita main sama anjing2nya deh.
Seneng bgt deh, anjing2nya tuh umurnya masih 1,5 bulan, masih lucu2nya bgt2.
Mamanya anjing2nya tuh namanya minori, papanya namanya Betto.
Yang betto jenisnya shih tzu, tp yang rambutnya gk panjang2 amat, jadi sedeng gitu rambutnya, tapi tebel bgt bulu2nya.
Lucu bgt deh pkoknya.

Mereka emang lucu bgt2 tapi tuh liurnya itu..hahhahaha...
Byk bgt, hahhaha. Tapi gpplah, anjingawi (lawan kata manusiawi).
Anjing2 itu bener2 bisa ngilangin rasa stress gw atas berbagai macam hal.
Gw jadi feel much better bgt deh.

Nh, foto2nya:

Confession of a Stressaholic

2009-09-07T07:55:00.000-07:00

Okay, I'm stressful now. Really-really stressful.
Why? For the first, it because of my hair.
I thought that I will be bold for next several months.
My hair become slighter day by day.
I don't know the reasons that make my hair get fall off so much in one day.
My mother stress about this problem.
She said that I must to cut my hair until so short.
And i will not do it until whenever.
But i feel so confuse about this problem.
What should i do with my hair?
I have already done some hair treatments.
But my hair still fall off so much in one day.
I've written about my hair's problem in my posting last month.
Now, I just can hope to GOD for all my problems especially about this problem.

Today my friends said that if Lee min ho (the coolest boy in bbf :)) is bold, he'll be not good anymore. And one of my friend said that: If my friend get punk or half bold hair cut, it will not match with his/her face. Yeah, it's really true. The haircut hold important part of outer looking.

The Question is:
Will be Someone still love her/his boyfriend or girlfriend when her/his beloved person get the unmatch haircut (although it isn't her/his wish to have the unmatch haircut)?

The Story about Today

2009-09-06T08:16:00.000-07:00

I felt rather tire because i did some exercise in my friend's house.
And than i felt so dizzy with many homeworks and exams for tomorrow.
SO what should i do for tomorrow?
I think, Nothing to do for tomorrow because, i feel so sleepy now.
And than i want to mixing new song for next competition, wish me luck
ya..:D
I hope i can mix the new song that great.

I believe I can do it

i hope i can do it well

My Tips to Destroy Your Bad Mood

2009-09-05T07:45:00.000-07:00

Kalo lagi punya masalah atau bt atau kesel sama orang/sesuatu/whateverlah yg penting kesel gitu atau lagi bad mood atau lagi gk enak feelingnya atau lagi marah, enaknya itu ngapain ya?

I have some tips, so you can feel better:
1. Makan yang banyak (makan apa aja) , supaya bisa ngilangin perasaan gk enak itu.
2. Main game supaya bisa ngelupain masalah kita itu.
3. Baca buku untuk mengalihkan pikiran kita dari masalah kita itu.
4. Banting2 benda lembut supaya tidak membahayakan lingkungan di sekitar kita, contoh: kapas, kertas, tissue, boneka yang lembut, bantal, guling, dll yang penting lembut, dan tidak membahayakan.
5. Makan ice cream (this is my own way to make feel better when i'm in the bad mood).
6. Main sama peliharaan kita (ikan, anjing, kucing, semut, cicak, dll).
7. Pegang hp, terus nelpon temen yang bisa diajak curhat.
8. Pegang hp, terus Sms temen terus cerita2 deh.
9. Tidur (senjata pamungkas buat ngilangin bt ala gw nh, ini tuh paling mujarab bgt buat ngilangin bad mood dan teman2nya yg nyusahin itu).
10. Main sama keluarga (biasanya main sama ade, atau anak2 kecil di lingkungan kita, dan ngajak mereka ngobrol2 dll bisa buat kita feel better , coba deh(i've ever tried that and it's work) )
11. Masak (bagi yang suka masak, ini cara lumayan manjur lho).
12. Motong sayur (sayur bisa menjadi pelampiasan rasa benci atau marah atau emosi kita terhadap sesuatu hal, jadi pas lagi sebel gitu, potong2 aja tuh sayur, dan anggaplah sayur2 itu adalah sesuatu yang buat kita bad mood).
!3. Nyanyi-nyanyi (nyanyi2 apa aja, bisa ngebuat kita lega dan feel better, cara ini paling sering bgt gw lakukan..hehehe)
14. Ngerap (bahasa kerennya ngomel2 ala gw) tentang apa yang membuat kita bad mood (jadi cara ini tuh bisa dilakukan secara seorang diri atau berkelompok, jadi kalo sendiri, ya ngomong2 aja sendiri ttg apa yang kita bt-in, disarankan di tempat yg sepi supaya tidak dikira gila, kalo berkelompok, carilah orang2 yang bisa dipercaya dapat menyimpan rahasia anda, disarankan:keluarga, tmn dekat, dll).
15. Blog walking atau sekedar nulis biasa aja di ms word atau buku diary (ini biasanya dilakukan sama yang udah terbiasa nulis, kadang gw juga gni kalo lg bad mood :D)
16. Nyoret2 buku.
17. Nonjok2 sesuatu yang lembut.
18. Mainan cat kuku atau kuteks (biasanya kalo gw lagi bad mood, gw mainan ganti2 kuteks, terus habis itu ilang deh btnya...:D mungkin cara ini cuma gw yg melakukannya..hehehhe)

Kayaknya cukup sekian deh tips dari gw untuk ngilangin bad mood, kalo ada yang bisa gw tambahin, gw tulis ntar di blog ini.hehehe
See ya...

About Sheila

2009-09-04T07:45:00.000-07:00

Name: Sheila Ratna Kemala.

Gender: Totally Female.

Age: 16

Status: Taken by someone.

Hobby: Playing Games, Reading, and etc.

Favorite color: White, Black, Purple, and etc.

She is one of my BFF.

I met her when i was a junior high student.

She is so friendly to me and to the others.

She doesn't coerce me to write about her in mhy blog.

I just want it by my self.

She is nice and beautiful too.

I think i must put her photo in this blog.

About Wikan

2009-09-04T06:44:00.000-07:00

Name: Ida Bagus Wikan.

Gender: Not a boy, not a girl too. ( I don't know exactly what it is).

Age: 16.

Status: Like both (male and female).

Hobby: Sleeping (it is a sleepaholic like a buffalo).

Favorite color: Pink, navy blue, magenta, purple, black, burgundy.

Okay, I write about him because he coerce me to write about him, if i don't write about him in my blog, he will punish me, bite me, and punch me.

How cruel he is.hahahha...

In my opinion, he is a good friend for me, and the others, but something he did crazy thing.

But it isn't weird anymore because i'm crazier than him. He likes to play barbie dolls when she was a young girl.

I think, i must put his photo in this blog, so the readers of my blog can know his/her face.

OK, i'm sorry ya wikan, because i posted your photograph and make your reputation rather complicated.hehehe..peace...

if you want me to change this post, just tell me.

hahahhaha(devil laugh)

*He is a normal boy*

Ada-ada aja..hahahhaha

2009-09-03T04:31:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, jujur gw lagi bingung nh.
Berusaha untuk gk peduli dan masa bodoh tentang suatu hal, gw gk bisa gitu.
Udah mencoba untuk gk peduli dan gk mikirin tentang itu dan gk peduli orang mau ngomong apa tentang itu, tapi masih aja susah bgt untuk gw buat gk peduli dan gk ngurusin dan gk mikirin.
Padahal gw tuh udah kayak gk dianggep, gk dipeduliin dan lebih tepatnya dibuang, tapi tetep aja gw gk bisa segampang itu, dengan mudahnya lepas tangan tentang itu.
Buat gk ikut aja gw g bisa. Gw ngerasa gw masih harus tanggung jawab buat saat terakhir ini.
Gw relain kesenangan gw tertunda buat itu.
Ya gw bela2in lah, gimanapun juga, gw g bsa buat gk peduli dan gk ikut campur tangan.

Oh ya ada lagi, yg dulunya gw gk pernah nyesel karena sesuatu hal, hari ini gw jadi nyesel bgt karena suatu hal. Untung gw percaya saat itu, kalo gw gk percaya, pasti sekarang gw udah nyesel plus nyesek bgt ya. Ternyata pandangan gw selama ini tentang suatu hal salah besar. Ya, mungkin gw udah tadu dari kapan tau, tapi gw g mau nyesel. Gw gk mau merasa gw itu nyesel gara2 itu. Tapi tadi kerasa banget ya nyeselnya, rasanya kyk apaan tau deh gitu. Agak sempet nyesek bgt sh. Tapi ya udh lah, gw g boleh ngerasa nyesel lagi, nyeselnya cukup tadi aja. Dan gw GAK boleh nyimpen dendam atau apalah itu ke hal itu. Yang udah terjadi biarkanlah itu menjadi kenangan, dan jangan disesali, itu gk baik.

Sekarang gw jadi berpikiran buat take a rebellion, ke semua aspek dalam hidup gw. Entah kenapa gw berpikir seperti itu. Gw jadi ngerasa seakan hidup itu very unfair to me. Everything become ridiculous, and totally I can't understand it. Kenapa jadi gini sh? Emang gw salah apaan sh ampe jadi pada segininya sama gw. Kalo emang gw ada salah, bilang aja, selesein secara blak2an, g usah ngomongin di belakang atau malah bikin cerita2 yang bukan fakta. gossiper bgt sh. Gk usah gmn dhe. Bilang aja kalo benci sama gw, gk suka sama gw, gk terima sama apa yang gw lakuin selama ini. Gw bisa terima kok. Soalnya gk ada orang yang sempurna.

Nobody's perfect
I know that i couldn't sing a song as wonderful as your voice.
I know that i couldn't painting a picture as beautiful as your painting.
I know that i couldn't speak on public as good as you are.
I know that i couldn't do something better than you.
But You Can't Treat ME like that.
Stop to talking about me behind me.
If you want to talk about me, please talk it in front of me. Not behind me.

Oh ya, posting gw kali ini bukan tentang suatu hal, atau tentang seseorang yang ada dalam hidup gw sekarang ini. Cerita yang kali ini gw tulis, tentang campuran cerita tentang beberapa hal yang udah gw tulis ini dari buku tulis lama gw, yang udah kesimpen lama banget. Terus ada Yang dari kumpulan cerita dari temen2 gw pas SD, jadi jangan ada yang salah paham dengan postingan saya kali ini ya. Ini buat tentang sesuatu yang up 2 date.

Earthquake

2009-09-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

Rabu, 2 Agustus 2009. Terjadi gempa bumi berkekuatan 7,3 SR, episentrumnya di Barat daya Tasikmalaya. Tapi guncangannya itu terasa sampai di Bekasi, tepatnya di Jl.KH Noer Alie No. 10 B Kalimalang. Di Global Prestasi school singkatnya.

Ketika gempa bumi melanda global, gw lagi ada di lantai 4 di ruang math.
Awalnya ketika gempa pertama mengguncang global, gw lagi berdiri, dan mengira bahwa ada yang gk beres sama kepala gw, pusing2 gmn gitu. Terus gw duduk di kursi, dan rasa gk enak di kepala gw, berkurang sejenak, lalu kembali lagi selama beberapa detik, rasa sakit kepalanya itu beda bgt, gw gk pernah pusing ampe segitunya, gw mulai berpikir kalo gw terkena vertigo (nama penyakit).

Tiba-tiba ada yang bilang kalo gempa, gw antara percaya dan tidak percaya kalo terjadi gempa bumi. Lalu gw dengan spontan masuk ke dalam kolong meja (bkn lacinya).
Terus tiba-tiba keadaan kelas jadi agak ricuh. Gw yg semula gk panik dan tidak menyadarinya pun, ikutan packing juga akhirnya. Meski gw belum percaya kalo itu gempa, gw ikutan pergi ke luar kelas. Nah pas perjalanan ke lapangan, gw baru sadar kalo tadi itu terjadi gempa sungguhan.
Oke, gw emang agak telat percaya kalo itu gempa beneran.

Habis itu, gw ke lapangan, berdiri2 sebentar, agak bolak-balik sebentar, terus pergi ke SD dhe seperti biasa. Terus main Donald Duck (biar keren nulisnya donald duck). Terus main pukul-pukulan tangan, terus pada merah deh tangannya, hahahha.

Oh, ya gempa yang berkekuatan 6 SR keatas berpotensi untuk terjadi Tsunami.
Badan metereologi dan geofisika menyatakan bahwa kemungkinan bakal terjadi Tsunami, tapi pernyataan itu dicabut setelah 1 jam terjadinya gempa bumi. Tapi masih ada kemungkinan bakal ada gempa2 susulan lainnya atau bahkan Tsunami.

Disini gw berpikir bahwa kapanpun dan dimanapun, apapun bisa terjadi.
Entah itu kebakaran, bom, gempa bumi, tsunami, atau tanah longsor atau dll.
Jadi intinya, Waktu Kematian seseorang Gk Ada yang Tahu.
Jadi berbuat baiklah sepanjang kita masih bisa melakukannya.

Thank you for Being My Bestfriends

2009-09-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

My desire
I'll always by your side when you need me, and never leave you alone as long as i can.
I'll try to cheer you when you are sad.
I'll aways keep your secrets and never let anyone know your secrets.
I'll become someone that you can believe to tell your life story.
I'll try to become someone that accompany you when you are sad or happy.

Please Forgive me
When I just care with myself.
When I always busy with my whole life.
When I don't have time to communicate with you by phone, at the school, or etc.
When I couldn't by your side when you need me.
When I couldn't tell the story of my life to you.

So sorry about that. But now I will try to change myself to be a better person.
I'll believe you to always keep my secrets until whenever, because you are my bestfriends ever.

Gentleman (Freyona's Version)

2009-09-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

In my opinion, a gentleman not only a man that doesn't smoke.
The man that smoking not always become ungentleman too.
Gentleman or ungentleman is based on their behaviour.
A gentleman person is someone who can take his responsibility of everything that he has already done.
And He will do the good things and he can make the best conclusion in whole life.
Gentleman is not about the age or the body shape or wealthness or smartness or boldness or etc.
Gentleman is about the way that someone do, to make the best situation for his life and another's life.

Oke, I don't care

2009-09-01T03:34:00.000-07:00

From now, until whenever, I wouldn't care and I don't want to know anything about it again.
It makes want to arrrggghhh....
I don't care and I wouldn't ever care about it again.

And i want to say:"If you want to do it just do it, If you don't want to do it just say it honestly and try to be honest to everyone in your environment, DON'T BE A HYPOCRITE PERSON."

Nilai

2009-08-31T08:22:00.000-07:00

Oh ya, gw heran dhe sama nilai.
Nilai itu penting sh penting.
Tapi ada yang bilang, Belajar itu untuk dimegerti, bukan belajar untuk Nilai.
Nah itu gw setuju bgt sama that statement, tapi entah kenapa dan bagaimana nilai itu menjadi suatu penentu yang sangat penting.
Nilai itu menjadi sebuah indikator keberhasilan belajar kita, jadi kita harus belajar untuk mengerti dan sebagai bukti kita mengerti akan suatu topik, dibuktikan dengan nilai yang baik.:D

Between 2 Choices

2009-08-31T04:45:00.000-07:00

Which one that mostly I love?
Sleep or study?
Oh wrong, not study, but playing computer.
So, what should i choose now?
Sleep or Playing computer?
I want sleep but I want to play too.
I want to play but I want to sleep too.
I think I want to sleep when I am playing computer.
Or I think I want to playing computer when I am sleeping.
OK, Now, My mind is getting become perplexing.
So I choose to eat or watching tv.
OK, see you in the next posting, bye2...

Story About Today

2009-08-31T04:05:00.000-07:00

Tadinya nh ya, pas gw lagi baru mulai nulis judul postingan kali ini, gw mau nulis nh postingan pake bahasa inggris. Tapinya, tiba2 pas gw lagi nulis judul gw disuruh nykp buat ngambil jemuran di halaman, eh terus jemurannya itu jatuh nimpa gw. Oh, damn shalalala dhe ih..hahhaa
Ya udah dhe jadinya sekarang mau tidak mau nulisnya pake bahasa indonesia aja dlu dhe.

Jadi hari ini, entah mengapa dan bagaimana caranya, gw bangun pagi hari ini. Yang biasanya bangunnya jam 5.30 am, tadi gw bisa bangun jam 5 am, padahal lagi gk ada ulangan hari ini.
Bisa-bisanya gitu gw bangun jam segitu, biasanya gw bangun jam 5 itu kalo ada ulangan aja, itu pun biasanya mls bgt, dan malah nerusin tidur lagi, tapi khusus hari ini gk.
Ya udah dhe, gw langsung mandi, dan pergi ke sekolah.
Seperti biasanya gw selalu ngantuk dan tidak bersemangat buat pergi ke sekolah.

Jadi semenjak tahun ajaran kali ini, gw tuh dtg ke sekolah lalu kemudian bersekolah hanya untuk formalitas dan untuk take my responsibility to my parents aja. Selebihnya ya, gw males bgt. Kalo gk demi itu, ya gw bner2 gk semangat ke sekolah.
Sebagai bukti bisa dilihat dari postingan2 di blog saya dalam 2 atau 3 bulan terakhir ini.
Kebanyakan postingan berisi tentang kejenuhan saya melewati hari2 dalam hidup saya.
Bahkan sempet males hidup dan maunya tidur aja, pkoknya postingannya itu isinya kayak orang yg bener2 frustasi stress hidup atau whateverlah itu.

Tapi ada yang beda hari ini, pas nyampe ke sekolah itu gw ngerasa kayak ada semangat baru, atau ada kekuatan baru gitu dhe buat kuat atau sanggup ngejalanin hari2 dalam hidup gw.
Entah gimana atau karena apa atau bagaimana caranya atau apa dhe gitu, gw bener2 semangat ngejalanin hidup, tumben2an bgt gw bisa gini.
Gw bersyukur bgt sma Tuhan, akhirnya gw bisa menjalani hidup gw dengan penuh suka cita dan rasa bahagia yang udah lama gk bsa gw rasain lagi sepenuhnya dalam hidup gw.
Gw bener2 bersyukur bgt. Tapi ya gk muna juga dhe, pasti ada hal yang gk ngenakin yang ada di sekolah, gw akui itu ada, tapi anehnya gw bisa lebih relaks dalam menghadapi semuanya itu, gw
bisa tetep tenang aja dalam ngejalaninnya.

Thanks God, You make me feel the happiness of life again after i couldn't feel it for several times.

Problem with Link in My blog

2009-08-30T01:00:00.000-07:00

Today i tried to change my templates in my blog with templates from another site.
But the result so Horrible.
All of my link that contents of Links of my friends are lost.
I was so stressful.
And i tried to put all of links of my friends to my blog again.
And the result is some links of my friends are successfully back to my blog, but i feel some links of my friends have been lost from my blog.
So, Everyone that have blog, and want me to put your link of blog in my blogspot, let's tell it to me, thx.

Ngamuk...hahhaha

2009-08-28T05:11:00.000-07:00

hahaha...hari ini gw lagi agak emosian bgt nh, huahahha...ampe ngamuk( kata anak2 osis tadi pas rapat).hehehe.
Gw sh jujur aja, gw gk ngamuk, gw cuma gk suka banget sama sistem yang sekarang.
Sistem election yang sekarang itu bener2 weird bgt dhe menurut gw.
Cuma di sistem yang sekarang, anak baru bisa jadi Ketua osis, cuma sistem yang sekarang, anak kelas 10 yang baru yang gk ikut mos (mksdnya mos yang sebelum msk itu, bukan mos susulan mksdnya) bisa jadi wakil ketua osis yang baru.
Cuma di sistem election kali ini yang kampanyenya cuma sehari dan pada saat habis kampanye itu, kita harus langsung nentuin pilihan kita.
Cuma election kali ini yang gk make hall untuk acara puncak election.
Cuma di sistem election kali ini ada 1 kelas dan 2/3 guru yang belum ngasih suara dalam pemilihan ini, tapi udah bisa ditentuin siapa pemenangnya.Katanya sh denger2 gitu ada yang bilang, yang penting jumlah suara 90% udah masuk dan udah kebanyakan milih "itu orang", jadi ya udah, gk apa2.
Parah bgt kan ya?
Hak pilih 1 orang tuh penting banget, apalagi 1 kelas + 2/3 guru yang belum ngasih suara hak pilihnya. Gk boleh gitu aturannya, itu tuh kayak bener2 gk demokratis bgt tau gk sh. Itu tuh kayak gk menghargai hak pilih seseorang, dan dalam kasus ini bukan cuma 1 orang, tapi beberapa orang.

Anak baru yang belum bener2 tau tentang global, yang baru mengenal global selama 2 atau 3 bulan, bisa jadi ketua osis. Ketua loh ini, bukan main2 loh, ketua itu tuh harus yang bener2 dhe.
Yang anak lama aja yang bukan anggota osis, belum tentu mampu jadi ketua osis. kalo gw sh gk mau jadi ketua soalnya tanggung jawab yang dibebankan kepada Ketua osis, bener2 tanggung jawab yang sepenuhnya dan bukan main-main, tanggung jawab moral dan harus bener2 ngejaga nama sekolah dan berusaha tampil baik sebaik-baik nya dalam keseharian, jujur sh gw merasa itu adalah sesuatu yang harus dijalankan dengan baik, dan merupakan beban mental dan moral juga ya.

Gw tadi pas rapat kesel banget dhe, baru kali ini gw rapat ampe agak meneteskan air mata saking keselnya sama ngeluarin suara agak kenceng atau dengan kata lain agak ngebentak.
Gw tuh udah bener2 kesel abis dhe, masa ya, si itu (*******)bilang kalo perubahan sistem ini, untuk memperbaiki sistem osis, soalnya katanya osis tahunnya gw, kaya sistem perbudakan.
Slavery, he told me like that.
Berarti kalo tuh orang ngmg gitu, berarti secara gk langsung dia ngatain osisnya gw itu kyk budak dnk...ha-ha-ha....
Gw jadi ngerasa apa yang gw lakuin selama satu tahun ini sama sekali gk ada artinya di mata tuh orang.
Gw gk terima dibilang kyk gitu.
Masa ya pencalonan kandidat osisnya aja udah aneh bgt, jadi itu homeroom disuruh milih 2 anak terbaik dari tiap kelasnya buat di calonin jadi kandidat wakil atau ketua osis, nah terus diseleksi dhe, dan yang nyeleksi itu tuh guru, kk2 osis yang kelas 12 skrg, sma sekali gk ikutan, gk asyik bgt kan. Jadi yang gk dicalonin gk bakal bisa dnk jadi ketua atau wakil osis, padahal ada orang yang mau dan emang berpotensi buat dudukin jabatan itu, tapi gk bsa atau dengan kata lain gk punya kesempatan untuk diseleksi sama guru, karena home room teacher mereka gk milih mereka untuk jadi kandidat wakil atau ketua. Ya intinya sh ini ya, gk punya kesempatan atau harapan buatjadi ketua atau wakil osis karena gk dipilih home room teacher mereka.
Padahal ya, tahun lalu dibuka bebas. Jadi siapa yang punya keinginan buat jadi wakil atau ketua osis bisa mencalonkan diri, dengan cara daftar ke kk osis waktu itu, terus entar baru dhe kk2 itu yang nyeleksi kita-kita terlebih dahulu, terus habis itu baru dhe yang menurut kk2 kelas bagus, ya diajukan atau masuk ke tahap berikutnya dan menjalani interview dengan guru-guru dan kepala sekolah, terus guru2 sama kepala sekolah rundingan sama kk2 osis, buat nentuin siapa yang pantes buat jadi kandidat calon ketua dan wakil ketua osis.

Terus ya yang lebih parah lagi dari sistem pemilihan anggota osis tahun ini adalah guru2 yang nentuin siapa yang pantes buat jadi anggota osis. OKE, guru2 itu kan milihnya anak2 yang pinter/smart, nilainya bagus, menonjol, famous atau hal2 yang baik lainnya. Jadi yang dianggap guru itu gk memenuhi kriteria dia buat jadi anggota osis, gk akan jadi anggota osis dnk.
Ya, kebanyakan guru ya milihnya anak2 ranking atas atau nilai2nya bagus lah.
Padahal, belum tentu anak2 yang mereka pilih buat jadi anggota osis itu mau jadi anggota osis.
Dan juga belum tentu anak2 yang mereka pikir gk pantes buat jadi anggota osis, ternyata lebih mampu dan punya keyakinan yang tinggi buat jadi anggota osis dibanding anak2 yang mereka pilih itu.
Dan lagi, tahun lalu itu, demokratis bgt sistemnya, jadi siapa yang mau jadi anggota osis, SIAPA AJA, GK PEDULI PINTER ATAU GK PINTER, daftar ke kk2 osis terus diseleksi, kemudian, untuk hasilnya dirundingkan dengan yang lainnya serta dirundingkan dengan guru.
Terus entar diumumin dhe hasilnya. Hasilnya itu udah berdasarkan keputusan banyak orang.
Dan hasilnya bagus kok, osis tahun ini berhasil menyelesaikan semua tugas dengan baik, meski pastinya ada kekurangan karena kita gk ada yang sempurna begitu juga dengan osis tahun2 sebelumnya.

Nah, kalo tahun ini apaan tuh?guru semua yang nentuin.
Ya pokoknya kalo sistem yang tahun ini kesimpulannya itu adalah Yang kurang pinter atau yang sedeng2 aja di kelas, gk bakalan jadi OSIS, karena gk punya kesempatan buat mencalonkan diri dan menunujukkan bahwa mereka mampu buat berorganisasi.
*Kesimpulannya adalah kalo gw adalah anak angkatan ke5 SHGPS, kemungkinan besar, gw gk bakalan bisa jadi OSIS, karena gk punya kesempatan buat nunjukkin diri kalo gw punya keyakinan yang tinggi buat jadi OSIS*

Oh ya bukan berarti gw sebel sama ketua dan wakil yang baru loh, gw disini cuma mau mencurahkan perasaan gw tentang sistem pemilihan yang baru di global ini, sistem election yang baru ini kurang gw suka, karena nilai-nilai demokratis yang ditanemin ke anak2 jadi kurang bgt, atau bahkan gk.

Try This When You Bored

2009-08-28T04:58:00.000-07:00

Kalo lagi bosen atau lagi gak ada kerjaan, coba dhe klik link yang gw tulis ini

Click Here

Ya, iseng2 gitu dibanding bosen, lumayan kok buat ngisi waktu luang pas gk ada kerjaan.

Asyik kok, coba aja. Try this ya when you bored.

Just think about it

2009-08-27T04:19:00.000-07:00

When will i die?
When will i sleep forever?
When will i close my eyes and never open it again?
When will i exhale my last breathe?
When will many people come to my funeral ceremony?
Where will i burry?
Just God that know the answers of all my questions.

Trouble

2009-08-27T03:53:00.000-07:00

Now i feel rather confuse.
I've already forget about it, for several months.
But why something that i've already forget, start to back on my mind?
I don't want it back. I want to erase it, forever.
I don't like to feel in trouble like now. It's so uncomfortable for me.
Please, go from my mind and never come back again. If it come back again, i hope i can smile and laugh and happy because it.:D
I hope everything is gonna be alright, the most important thing is my mood gonna be alright as soon as possible.

I don't know...

2009-08-27T02:46:00.000-07:00

Huh, i feel so confuse now.
Because of something that i don't know and understand.
This time, the system of election in my school are really different than last year.
I think, this time not really democratic, because of the teachers just choosed their 2 best students from their class, and then the 2 best students will take the audition to become the candidate of president and vice president osis.
I think this system so unfair.
WHY?
Because last year, when i become a candidate of vice president osis, I must took many interviews with many people such as: principal of gps, student affair of gps, almost all of osis member (osis 2007-2008) and plus, one person (the graduated student from first batch shgps).
And then I must took some writing test to measured the capability of my brain.
If my memory save correctly the test took about 3 or 2 hours.
And then when i had been choosed as a candidate of vice president, i must took some interviews with some osis members after school until 5 pm.
Oh, it's so tired at that time.
And if we compare the system of election osis this year and last year, are really very different.
Ya, just let it go.
And i hope osis committee this year will be better than last year.
Good Luck..:D

Syalalalalalalala..lalalalalala

2009-08-26T02:10:00.000-07:00

Aduh posting kali ini, gk pake bahasa inggris dlu ya, lg in the bad mood bgt nh ah..hahhaha
Sorry ya, gk pake bahasa inggris, in the next posting dhe, atau gk, posting yg kali ini gado2 language aj. Atau apa deh gitu.
Ah, pokoknya gw lagi bad mood deh ah, entah karena ap, atau bagaimana caranya, atau gimana atau apalah itu.
Yang jelas gw lg bad mood.
Gw pengen nulis, alasan kenapa gw bad mood, tapi itu susah bgt buat ditulisnya.
Ya pokoknya, gw lg ngerasa gk adil, kesel, sebel atau apalah itu.
Gini dhe, kalo misalnya kamu2 yang baca tulisan gw ini, mengalami hal yang kayak gw, jadi semua temen2 lw berada di kelas yang sama, dan cuma lw doang yang gk sekelas sama mereka, aduh, agak gmn gitu kan rasanya, ngerasa gk adil-lah atau whateverlah itu.
Ya bknnya gw lebay atau ap, gw sh udah mencoba untuk menjalankan hari2 seperti biasanya, dan ya seperti keadaan normal biasanya. Ya normal2 aj sh.
Tapi kadang kan pasti ada saatnya ngerasa iri sma tmn2 semua itu yang sekelas.
Gw sh udah gk begitu ngerasa gimanalah akhir2 ini ya. Udah enjoy bgtlah sama keadaan yang sekarang.
Lagian kan temen2 di kelas yang sekarang juga oke2 bgt semuanya. Jadi gw pasti senenglah sekarang di kondisi keadaan yang seperti ini.
Tapi ya gw gk bsa bhongin perasaan diri gw sendiri juga ya, kadang ya gw juga ngerasa jealouslah gitu, ngeliat semuanya pada bareng, cuma gw dan beberapa tmn gw yang gk bareng2 mereka.
Kemarin2 sh gw udah gk ngerasa jealouslah, tp tuh tadi ya, gw ngerasa bgt.
Gmn perbedaan antara dulu dan sekarang.
Perbedaan antara sekelas dan gk sekelas.
Meski pas istirahat ketemu lg, kan kebykan waktu kita di sekolah kita habiskan dengan bersama-sama teman2 sekelas kan ya?iyaaaa.
Ya, beda bgtlah situasi kondisi keadaan dan semuanyalah itu.
Ya gw jg tau diri lah, gw gk mungkin jealous terus2an, masa ya sethn mau jelaous2 terus gni. Bisa gila gara2 jealous gk sekelas kali ya. huahahhaa.
Gw ngerasa gni ya karena ada beberapa penyebab dan keadaan.
Ada beberapa keadaan dan penyebablah.
Tapi yang paling kerasa itu ya, pas pelajaran math. Itutuh keadaan puncak gw badmood abis2an. Gw bener2 merasa diasingkan dan terasingkan. Gw paling gk suka duduk di pojok. Apalagi pelajaran math gitu, gw ditaro di sudut pojok tembok kelas.
Gw yang biasanya duduk di tengah paling depan aja sering bgt masih lola, dan byk gk ngerti mathnya, aplg kalo gw ditaro di sudut pojok gitu. Ah, tambah gk ngerti dhe gw.
Damn shalalalala, lalallalaa bgt kan?
Apalagi ya tadi pengumuman nilai weekly math yg kemarin, nambah buat gw bad mood ancur2an dhe ah, gw ngerasa bisa bgt ngerjainnya, ternyata dapet segitu.
Bukannya gw gk bersyukur sama nilai gw ya, gw bersyukur karena gk remed, tapi ya nilainya itu pas2an bgt dhe, pokoknya nilainya itu kayak hasil proses selama ini gw gk ngerti di kelas.
Padahal jujur aja ya, gw ngerti bgt lho, dan kyknya kesalahan gw itu cuma salah nulis huruf aj dhe, yg harusnya "n" malah gw tulis "p". Kan harusnya nilai gw gk jatuh ampe sejatuh2nya itu, itu tuh nilai gk bgs bgt dhe ah, pdahal gw yakin kin kin kin.huahahha.
Y udh lah, ini ujian dari Tuhan. Rencana Tuhan indah pada waktunya.
Jadinya ya sekarang jujur aj ya, gw pasrah aj deh sama semua nilai2 gw.
Kan ada kata-kata "Belajar itu untuk dimengerti, jangan belajar untuk nilai."
Jadi yang terpenting adalah try to do your best that you can do, and than about the result serahkan pada Tuhan.
Oh ya, gw sekarang lg hate love or like loh, hahhaha.
Soalnya yg gw alami selama hidup gw, itu tuh gk ngenakin bgt.
Gk enaknya itu nyedihin, nyakitin, dan yang paling gk enak itu adalah nyeremin.
So much painful, sad, tears, afraid and scream.
Ya gk sepenuhnya itu aja sh, ada juga yang ngenakin dan nyenengin, tapi kebanyakan nyereminnya bagi gw. Kenapa?Karena panjang dhe ceritanya pokoknya suer dhe, nyeremin bgt, saking seremnya ampe gw nangis terus gw ketawa2 sendiri juga udh kyk org abnormal.
Pokoknya kalo soal like or love itu, sekarang gw serahkan kepada Yang Diatas, kalo jodoh ya pasti gk kemana kan kan kan? Rencana Tuhan pasti indah pada waktu-Nya.:D
Just let it flow aj skrg dhe, jangan terlalu dipikirin bgt2, kalo dipikirin bgt2, bisa stress sendiri dhe.Hahahha, mending kalo orang yang dipikirin itu mikirin balik, kalo ternyata gk, rugi dnk ya, ngabis2in waktu, tenaga, energi, buat mikirin orgnya. Yang jelas prinsip gw sekarang, let it flow aj dhe, kalo dibilang hate love or like juga gk, dibilang emang lg atau pengen ska sma orang ya juga gk, biasa2 aj sh sekarang gw. Netral aja dhe sama yang begitu2an.G usah terlalu gmn bgt. Ya, let it flow seperti sungai yang mengalir, dibiarkan natural dan alami, seiring berjalannya waktu dan keadaan.
Oh ya, tadi gw juga sempet bad mood gara2 toge(sebutan untuk sesuatu), terutama sama the masternya(tm) toge.Tm toge itu ngeliatin gw dengan mata sinis bgt bgt bgt, pas tadi gw di perpus, tatapan matanya licik bgt, pengen gw cabein aj tuh rasanya. Terus gw ulek dhe matanya, dicampur cabe, merica, bawang merah, bawang putih, kencur, garam dan lain-lain.hahaha.
Toge kan jadi gk jelas gara2 tmnya gk jelas, jujur aj sh, gw sebel sama tmnya itu, dari dulu, tapi gk boleh ditunjukkin kalo gw sebel sama dy, jd ya, yg tau gw sebel sma dy, cuma beberapa saja, dan gw harap gk ada yang tau lg, selain orang2 tertentu. Ya, udhlah, gw jg gmw mendem dendam sama tuh makhluk, biarin aj lah. Yang penting semuanya akan segera berakhir. Meski gw tadi agak kesel bgt gara2 gw gk tau apa2 ttg info terbaru toge.Kesel abis, dan salah satu hal yg membuat gw bad mood bgt bgt hari ini. Huahahha...
Yg penting, gw gmw dendam sma tmnya toge.
Y udhlah, Semoga hari esok lebih baik dari hari ini.:D
Maaf ya kalo postingan kali ini gk jelas bgt, soalnya emang lg gk enak nh.Hehe..

If i were a boy for one day

2009-08-25T07:48:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i think i want to become a boy.
Become a boy is easier than become a girl i think, because many reasons of that.
Now i think, i want to be a boy for one day or forever.
Sometimes I was jealous with many boys, they looked more free than girls.
They can do anything that he wants to do.
They can go to wherever they want without many advices from their parents.
They don't feel the illness of menstruation every month..hahhaha
And the most important that they are more have freedom than girls.
hahhaa...
But i'm so thankful to God that He created me as a girl.
Thanks God..:D

Hope

2009-08-24T05:55:00.000-07:00

Hope is something that simple.
But the the deeply meaning of that not simple like that.
With hope, you can do something that impossible.
If you believe that your hope can become a reality, your hope will come true.
I believe in my hope. And i will try to make it real.

Lazy to do everything

2009-08-24T05:48:00.000-07:00

Today, I wake up late, and I felt so lazy to went to school.
I thought that, for what i go to school?
There are so many answer about that.
But i didn't want to go to school today.
I want to sleep as long as i can.
Sometimes i think that i want to sleep forever.
Sleep forever, same as dead.
Maybe, i don't want to sleep forever now, but i just want to sleep as long as i can.

Master Piece Creation :P

2009-08-22T00:34:00.000-07:00

The Evidence

By: Ferdinandus Kurniadi

Tornado and Sparklight (Night View from Bianglala)

By: Gendis Freyona & Sathya Prastika

Tornado (Night View From Bianglala)

By: Gendis Freyona & Sathya Prastika

Lollipop (for Dinda&Putri)

By: Gendis Freyona

Together in front of Merry go Round

By: Sam Evo Christio

Sparklight (Night View From Bianglala)

By: Gendis Freyona

Merry go Round (Night view)

By: Gendis Freyona

Rajawali

By: Ida Bagus Wikan

Vina & Evo on the Burung Tempur

By: Gendis Freyona

Vina & Evo on the Burung Tempur (with the sky view)

By: Gendis Freyona

Tika & Ferdi on The Burung Tempur

By: Gendis Freyona

Tornado

By: Ida Bagus Wikan

Sathya Prastika

By: Aristo Pratama Endiera

Ferdinandus Kurniadi

By: Aristo Pratama Endiera

Flowers

By: Ida Bagus Wikan

White Rose

By: Ida Bagus Wikan

Red and White Rose

By: Ida Bagus Wikan

Very Wonderful day

2009-08-21T22:41:00.000-07:00

Jadi, hari jumat kemarin. Gw pergi ke ancol sama 11 orang temen2 gw.
Kalo diitung sma gwnya, jadi kita ber-12 pergi ke sono.

Ke 11 orang itu adalah:
1. Sathya Prastika ( Patung Buddha)
2. Ferdinandus Kurniadi ( Si juragan NGILER)
3. Ida Bagus Wikan ( Tengkorak berjalan)
4. Sheila Ratna Kemala ( Iseng couple with Doni)
5. Doni Julian ( Iseng Couple with Ella)
6. Julius Dharmawan ( Si Jupe..hehehe)
7. Hanif Prasetyo Kusumo (Cool...)
8. Aristo Pratama Endiera (Kk autis)
9. Aldo Fadillah ( Agressive..)
10. Sam Evo Christio Posumah (Lemooott..)
11. Vina Manasye Handoyo( Ontaaa)
12. Gendis Freyona ( Lola, loading lama)

hahahhahaha...MAAFKAN SAYA YA TEMAN2KU YANG TERCINTA dan SETANAH AIR

Julukan2 itu hanya untuk LUCU2AN aja kok, MOHON TIDAK ADA YANG TERSINGGUNG

I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH...

Jadi awalnya kita ngumpul di sklh kita yang tercinta tapi bohong itu, sekitar jam 9an lewat, udh pada ngumpul semua tuh. Lalu kita b
erangkat dhe. Dengan menggunakan 3 mobil.
Mobil Alphardnya tika: Tika, Aristo, Gw, Ferdi, Wikan, dan Doni.
Mobil Panthernya julius: Julius, Ella, Vina, Evo.
Mobil sedan hijaunya hanif (lupa mereknya ap): Hanif dan Aldo.
Masing2 mobil ada supirnya.
Kita ke superindo dlu buat beli snack2 dan bla bla bla.
Terus abis itu, baru dhe kita let's go to the Ancol.

Yang nyampe itu, mobil alphard dluan, kemudian disusul mobil sedan hijau, lalu panther.
Sampe disana, gw dan rombongan mobil pertama menyadari kesalahan informasi diantara kita.
Kita kira, msknya jam 11an gitu. Ternyata dufan bukanya baru jam 13.30. dan kita udh nyampe dsana sekitar Jam 10.20.
Jadi banyak bgt wktu yg harus kita lalui untuk menunggu dufan buka.
Kita awalnya berpikir buat main bowling atau main bebek atau main ke pantai.
Ternyata situasi dan kondisi, agak sulit dan kyknya emang sulit buat melakukan hal itu.

Jadinya kita muter2 aja disekitar situ, sambil nyari makan.
Nah pas nyari makan itu, kita bingung mau nyari makan dimana, akhirnya kita ambil keputusan: beberapa org dari kita pergi ke a&w buat beli makanan dan sisanya nunggu loket buka.
Yang beli makanan ke a&w itu: Vina, julius, sma aldo. Sisanya berkeliaran di sekitar dufan, sambil foto2 dengan berbagai macam gaya ada yang autis ada yang abnormal dan banyak yang aneh lainnya, serta melakukan hal2 yg agak autis lainnya.hahhaha

Y udh beberapa menit kemudian loket dibuka. Terus gw dan ferdi yang bertugas membeli tiket akhirnya membeli tiket.
Dan ternyata harga tiket yang kita perkirankan salah.
Di papan pengumumannya tulisannya hari Jumat, tiketnya seharga: Rp90.000,00
Tapi ternyata harga tiketnya hanya: Rp45.000,00
hahha,,...Bergembiralah kita semua.....

Lalu sambil menunggu pintu dufan dibuka, kita semua makan di bawah pohon di sekitar dufan.
Hem....kalo boleh jujur sh emang agak gk elit, tp kita semua have fun kok, dengan makan bersama2 di bawah pohon di sekitar dufan. Jarang2 gitu ke dufan, aplg mkn di bwah pohon di dufan...gk pernah tuh gw kecuali kemarin, seru bgt, menambah pengalaman yang bener2 gk bisa dilupakan, entar gw ceritain ke anak cucu gw ah..hahhaha (jauh amat ya gw mikirnya)

Pas mau msk dufan kan antri dlu terus di cap. Nah y udh gitu.
Kan di capnya di tangan tuh.
Terus gw tambahin di leher. Sekalian mau dijidat, tp aneh kata yang lain, jd y udh dhe, g jd, kasian gw sma tmn2 gw, ntar kalo gw make cap di pipi atau dijidat, dikira jalan2 sama org gila.hahhaha

Wahana yang kita naikin pertama adalah Kora2, gw agak stress tuh pas naik itu, gw nunduk aj tp asyik bgt, tp gw g teriak.hahhaha.
terus habis itu naik kicir2, yang gk ikut naik kicir2 itu: wikan, aldo sma hanif.
yg lainnya ikut,
Nah, gw kebagian naik brg si evo.
Nah gw teriak udaaaah, terus gw teriak lg paraaaah.
Pkoknya gw teriak2nya tuh 2 kata2....
Parah dan Udaaahhh....
Eh si evo ikut teriak udaaaah sma paraaah juga.
Pas udah selesai si evo malah bilang: lagi dnk.
Jah...SWT tuh evo..hahhaha

Lanjut, wahana berikutnya adalah TORNADO.
Jujur2an aj nh. Gw dilarang KERAS sma Nykp gw buat naik TORNADO.
Tp gw udah bawa obat, jd gw tenang aj dhe. Dan gw berjanji ke ella dan ferdi, buat gk kenapa2 pas naik tornado, soalnya mereka yg ditugasin buat ngelarang gw buat naik tornado.
Dan pas naik tornado gw duduknya diantara ferdi dan aristo.
Gw diem aj pas naik tornado, teriak buat seru2an aj.
Sama sekali gk takut,
sereman kicir2 dhe pkoknya.
Tornado mah gk ada apa2nya.
hahahha...songong bgt ya gw..heheheh

Terus habis itu, gw lupa naik ap lg,
Yg gw inget pas naik alap2 gw duduknya paling depan sma aristo, terus kan pas naik alap2 itu dibilangin sma petugas Dufannya, kalo yang lbh berat, di sebelah kanan, yg lbh ringan di sebelah kiri, nah gw sma aristo kan jelas lbh beratan gw(bknnya gw sok berat ya, tp emg gt, meski sma2 kurus kerempeng, kyk kurang gizi, tp masih beratan gw,hehehe..peace to..)
si aristo yg di sebelah kiri, alhasil, si aristo kegencet sma gw.hahhaha...maaf ya to..hehehehe

Terus, gw lupa main ap lg, yg gw inget burung tempur.
Pas main burung tempur, gw duduknya sma si ella (one of my bff)
terus, kita fto2 dhe di burung tempur.
Kita bernarsis2 ria riang gembira di atas burung tempur yg sedang terbang melayang berputar2.
hahhaa.
Disana kita foto2 dan fotoin semua tmn2 kita.
Di atas burung tempur itu, banyak hasil karya jepretan master piece gw.
Ntar ada fotonya.
Gw upload di postingan berikutnya.
Cerita dan foto di tampilkan terpisah.

Nah terus, naik rajawali, gw tidur diatas sana, hahhaa. tau2 udh selesai aj tuh wahana.
Terus perang bintang, berhubung gw lagi ngantuk dan lemes, jadinya gw nembaknya asal2an dhe.
Scorenya jelek dhe pkoknya, soalnya mainnya g nepsong sh gw.hahhahaha
Coba gw semangat tuh mainnya..hahahha
Yang paling excited sma perang bintang itu, si aldo sma aristo.

Lanjut, habis itu gw lupa. ap lg ya.
Arung jeram, gw basah kuyub se kuyub2nya.hahhaa

Eh sebelumnya naik halilintar dhe, pas naik halilintar, gw sma aldo duduk paling depan.
Ternyata g serem ah naik paling depan, biasa aj.hahahha
Cuma yang gk gw suka dari halilintar adalah gw kejedot saat main halilintar.hahahhaa

Terus habis itu ya, kita masuk rumah kaca.
Pas di rumah kaca, gw sempet fto2 lho di dlm sana.Hahaha
Terus rumah miring, pusing gw di rmh miring.

Setelah itu, main niagara2.
Gw paling depan lg lho.Hahhaha...
Jujur pas yang niagara2 gw agak deg2an, soalnya jatuhnya itu lho, byur....hahhahha
Tapi seru ah. Gk kena air ..hjahahaha
yang kena air bgt itu si vina, soalnya paling belakang.

Habis itu ganti baju dan kita main tornado lg terus main kora2 lg
Nah yang main kora2 yang kedua itu, agak2 extreme gitu dhe.
Diputernya lama, ampe hampir 90 derajat lg.
Pertama2nya sh asyik2 aj, berdiri2 sambil teriak2, eh tp lma2 gw lemes, tgn gw dingin, dan habis selesai naik kora2 itu, kan turunnya ada kyk tangga gitu, gw g ngeliat kalo ada tangga, alhasil gw jatuh berlutut.hahahha..agak memalukan dan agak autis, karena ada yang ngira gw hampir pingsan atau mau pingsan beneran soalnya sebelum giliran gw naik kora2 yang malem itu, ada ygn pingsan. Nah terus ya, kan ada yg bawa2 handycam pas naik kora2. Nah yang pas gw jatuh itu, kan menimbulkan bunyi gedebuk atau gubrak, atau apalah itu, dya ngarahin handycamnya ke gw. Aaaarrrrggghh....capcay dhe, org gw gk knp2.hahhaha

Habis naik kora2, gw ngerasain agak lemes, sma tgn gw dingin, terus keringet dingin.
Tapi gpplah, langsung lanjut lg naik bianglala.
Nah disini nih, yang menyebalkan, dan amat gw benci.
Bianglalanya membuat kita ber12 mabok, pusing dan mual serta eneg.
Ih kesel ya.

Habis naik itu, mood gw ancur dhe.
Terus gw beli cotton candy, terus mood gw gjd ancur dhe..
hahaha...SWT bgt ah...hahaha
y udh habis itu pada bingung mau dinner dimana (ceilah, dinner,..bilang aj makan malem gitu..hahhaha)
Ada yang mau makan inilah itulah, disinilah disitulah.
Jadi akhirnya kita memutuskan untuk makan di bekasi aja, kota kita tercinta,

Nah kan pulangnya gw ikut mobil panthernya julius bareng vina, wikan sama julius, kita pake acara nyasar2 dlu lho.
Ampe agak lama nyasarnya, hahahha.
Padahal kita makannya di caman.wkwkkw....
Terus, kita makan di Sari Bundo dhe, masakan padang gitu.
Gw nyari rendang udh gk ada, jdnya ayam rendang aj dhe.
Gw kepedesan, dan jdnya buru2 bgt mknnya, pedes bgt dhe bo...hahha.

Habis itu kita pulang dhe, gw plgnya bareng sma julius, vina sma evo.
Y udh dhe akhirnya gw nyampe rumah sekitar jam 22.30 (setengah 11)
Dan nykp gw ngerti kok untungnya.
Jadi Happy ending dhe.

I love you all...

*Sorry, because i don't using english language in this posting, maybe later I will posting with english language again.*

Hair fall

2009-08-16T09:13:00.000-07:00

This is my biggest problem now.
My hair fall, every minute in the big amount.
Before this problem, my hair was so thick, but now, my hair so thin, and almost BOLD.
Oh no.....
What things that made me like this?
I don't know what.
And tomorrow, if my hair don't stop to fall.
My mother will cut my hair, so i have short hair.
And for me, have short hair same as lost a half of my life.
AND I WOULDN'T DO THAT

Feel so tired

2009-08-14T03:31:00.000-07:00

This week was full of activites for me, start from weekly test, this week is weekly test.
I must studied for weekly test, because i don't like remedial.
Eventhough this week, i was so lazy to study, but i must study.
And today, is independence day celebration at my school, so i prepared for that.
Before today, i have done the preparation for it.
So, this week is full of activites for me and another osis committee.
But i'm happy to do that, because this event is the last event for me.
Because I will not join osis, for this academic year.
I want to participate in many academic or non academic competitions, for my future.
But i still confuse about many things that happened in my life.
There are so many things that i can't explain with words.
I just really don't understand about it.
And i don't know why my parents are so over protective to me.
I know that i'm the only one child in my family, but i don't want to being like this.
I can't get my freedom in my life, even just a little bit freedom, i don't know what should i do to my parents. I want they change their opinions about terrorism.
And i want they understand that the death will come to a person, whenever they come.
And nobody that know it.

Pig oh Pig

2009-08-11T05:24:00.000-07:00

Okay yesterday i didn't write in this blog because i was so busy.

Now, i just want to update my story in this blog.

Yesterday i have done my chemistry test, and i can do it..:D..yeah...hahahha

But i did some mistakes, eventhough maybe it's only one number. i can't get perfect score.

But i can get the best score that i can get from that test, and i'm sure about that.:D

And yesterday i did swine influenza assignment, for Indonesian assignment.

I looked for many photos of pig and many articles of pig.

Yesterday my day full of PIG....

Chemistressful

2009-08-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

Okay, today i was learning chemistry for tomorrow exam.
I'm rather worry with chemistry, because i didn't join the chemistry class for 3 or 4 hours.
I don't want to take remedial in this lesson because i love chemistry (huahahahha, i'm not sure).

The reason that i must love chemistry eventhough i don't love it because i will take food technology or pure chemistry or something that have connection with chemistry for my destination at university later.

I must can do chemistry exam tomorrow, i must do it well.
I hope i can do it with all my best.
I'll try to do my best...:D

Last duty

2009-08-07T22:09:00.000-07:00

Maybe yesterday was my last duty as an osis member to go outside school.
I still have duty, to do independent day event.
Okay, I will tell a story about yesterday.
The osis member who went to binus university are Evi, Putri, Ratih, Yuga and me.
There was one teacher, he is counselling teacher, his name is Mr.Andreas.
We went to there to attend "future leader change seminar" (if my memory save correctly).

There are so many people. As you known that, mostly student in binus university are chinesse.
So at there i can attend the seminary and washing eyes. hahahha...
There are so many handsome people at there. So i can washing eyes easily.hehehe
Every corner at there, there were so many handsome people.
And at there i met my old friend, he is my elementary school friend.

At there, there was a moment that the moderator of seminar, told all of the participant of seminar to do a presentation, or campaign something that important.
So my school choose a topic. The topic is, "Positive attitude in case of care to our areas".
I did my campaign with my partner Evelyna glen.
And the result is, we are the second best of the campaign, and we got goodie bag from kawanku and a book.

Okay, that's all my story about yesterday.

Don't judge a book only by it's cover

2009-08-05T06:44:00.000-07:00

I like that statement. I think that statement is good enough.
Don't look a person only by her or his outer performance.
You will not known a person before you know the inside of that person.
So, based on my opinion, ineer beauty is more important than outer beauty, but i don't say that outer beauty is not important.(this topic already i type in another posting in this blog).
For me, i don't see someone only by their outer, but also their ineer.
I think, we may not valued someone by only see their outer, we must know the inside of someone and than valued them.
Sometimes, outer can recover everything that can't see with eyes.
And outer can erase by the time.
But inside will stay in our body forever until we leave this body.

Alright

2009-08-03T04:50:00.001-07:00

Yeahhh, finally...everything is alright
The important thing is my friendship....
It's alright and no revenge around us..
I hope our friendship can stay for a long time..
I hope we can be forever friends..:D
And no more problems around us...
Peace.....
I Love You Friends.....

Mein Kampf

2009-08-02T05:40:00.000-07:00

I bought this book for History Assignment.
My history teacher, Mrs. Sari told us that we must read a book for 1 semester or 6 months.
The book must have connection with History, history of world or history of Indonesian.
And I choose "Mein Kampf Vol.1" for the assignment.

Why I choose "Mein Kampf Vol.1"?
My reason is because the writer or the creator of this is Adolf Hitler.

Adolf Hitler is a historic person that very popular.
He brought many things to this world when he still alive.
And i think i must know about his opinion, his strategic, his life and many think about him.
He is an interesting person that I MUST KNOW.

Oh ya, I'll read Mein Kampf Vol.2 after i already read this book.

Hope something

2009-08-02T02:35:00.000-07:00

I hope everything is gona be alright tomorrow.
The most important thing is my friendship with "it".
I want, we can do everything together like usual.
We can share our problems, stories of life, and everything together.
No revenge between us. And everything become back like usual.

OK peace

2009-07-31T06:43:00.000-07:00

Peace......
Me and Mickey, have a decision to peace.
I don't want to have any problem with it anymore.
Just forget it and let it go.
So in the next day we can do something that useful together again.
:)

Ben o kadar çok nefret ediyorum

2009-07-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

I know when i'm writing this posting, someone is calling my friends.
Ok, let's call someone with "Mickey".
I select the word "Mickey" randomly.
I hate mickey so much.
My reason to hate it because, it angry with me without any important reasons.
And it angry with me, like i have fault to it.
to tell you the truth, i don't have any fault to it.
Just little but actually not important.
i ever said that i couldn't do an exam, but the result is i don't have remedial at that lesson.
I don't why, but the result is like that.
I'm so sorry that my prediction about my scores is wrong, but i think mickey should support me.
Not angry with me.
I feel so dejected with it.
I think, it is calling my friends, and talk about me right now....
uuuhhh
i hate it

İlk performans

2009-07-27T03:32:00.000-07:00

I think for the performance, i still very very and really really bad, i didn't give my best to my team, and i'm really sorry to all of members of my team. They have given their best, but i haven't given the best thing that i can do for them. If i can return to yesterday, i will do better than that, but unfortunately, i can't replay the time. I just can apologetical to all of my faults.
My perform like an accursed scenery. Really bad for a performance. But it's okay lah, for the first experience. I'm so regret for all of my faults.

But if i get the video of my first experience, i will share it on this blog, or on facebook. I will try to upload to this blog.

Now i just have some pictures of yesterday. If i have more pictures, i will upload to this blog again.:D

After the performance, we went to eat. And i ate chicken cordon bleu. Before the food came, we took some pictures with all of us.

Tania, Disa, Bima , Gendis (from the left)

Bima, Tania, Gendis, Disa (from the left)

Tragedy of the day

2009-07-25T03:31:00.000-07:00

Oh my godness, today is very very wonderful day, many tragedies that happened in this day.
oke, kali ini gw nulisnya pake bahasa indonesia aja dhe,
tragedinya itu: banyak bgt,
cobaan bgt nh hari ini buat gw. Cobaan yang lumayan menurut gw.
aduh....sakit banget...
Jujur gw stress mikirin kaki gw sekarang, kaki gw sakit.huauauuauauua
jidat gw jga sakit, huhuhu.
tau ah...pusing gw hari ini...hihihihi
Hak sepatu gw, copot pas tadi, terus gw lupa stretching pas awal2, ya resikonya adalah gw keram gitu pahanya, bego bgt dhe gw aturannya pake stretching dlu, jdnya kan g mengganggu yang lain pas latihan.
aduh, mana bsk lg, stress dhe gw mikirin semuanya...
tadi jga, kaki tmn gw bentrok ke jidat gw, keras bgt malah, rada benjol..hahhahah
ini gw jadiin pelajran berharga bgt dhe...
hari ini bener2 cobaan berat dan cukup besar bagi gw.
semoga ke depannya gw bsa lebih baik lagi....
oke enough for today.
Wish me luck, tomorrow ya..:D

Bana şans diliyorum

Je ferai de mon mieux

2009-07-24T08:39:00.000-07:00

Je ferai de mon mieux pour lui. parce que j'aime faire.
qui est un de mes passe-temps . un de mes rêves , Je vais faire ce qui est vrai .
ma promesse , Je ferai de mon mieux

The past

2009-07-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

This story about my life past time.
Suddenly i remember about some of my memories when i was a junior high student.
Someone ever said to me that:"if you want me to die, i will die, so it can make you happy."
When i heard that words, i felt so happy because i didn't know the deeply meaning of these words and because of i heard its from my enemy. I just don't care about those words, and i didn't keep its on my memories. But i wrote its, in my diary book. And yesterday when i opened that book again, to read my past, i think that its not important but its memorable..hahhaha...
i don't know why, but i know that it was a part of my life past time.
Just keep it in my diary book. And the time will burry its from my memory forever.

Gerçekten yeni bir şey gerekiyor

2009-07-22T07:41:00.000-07:00

Benim günlük yaşam ile sıkıldım. Her gün her zaman olduğu gibi.
Ben yeni bir şey gerekiyor.Gerçekten bir şey gerekiyor, bana sıkılmış değil hissettirecek bir şey.
Ben inanıyorum, birgün ben mutluluğu bulacaksınız.

Thank you for 5th generation of SHGPS

2009-07-17T05:18:00.000-07:00

Thank you so much, to all of members of 5th generation of SHGPS that had done the MOS for this year. I hope all of you can be success in your life and can be useful for all of people that near with you. I'm very proud of you. Keep smiling and always advocate your friends to do their best.
GBU...

Feels better

2009-07-17T03:03:00.000-07:00

Yeah..finally i can feel much better than few days ago. I can enjoy my life in my new class.
For the first time when i knew that i'm not in the same class with all of my bestfriends, i feel so sad and really really sad.
I was not in the mood to do anything in the class, and all of day i felt so dejected and broken hurt.
I don't want to do anything in the class, i just keep silent in the class.
Very seldom for me, to only be silent student in the class, usually i am a hiper active student.
I think not only hiper active student, but also very captious student, i can't stop talking with my friends. I was always have many topics to debated with my friends.

But now, in 11 sc 2, i'm rather changed, i'm not being a very captious student, and not very silent too in the class. I think it can be wonderful in 11 sc 2. I hope it so much...
hehehe.....

Eventhough i'm not in the same class with all of my bestfriends, i hope our friendship can be forever..hahhaha

Feel so arghhhh...

2009-07-11T07:16:00.000-07:00

This so unfair for me.
The division of class was really unfair for me.
They separated me from all my bestfriends.
Oh...this is make me feel so sad and dejected.
I want to complain about it to my head master in shs gps.
Because the division of class was very very really really unfair for me.
The ambience determine the achievement of somebody.

My very wonderful day

2009-07-09T05:20:00.000-07:00

Okay in this posting maybe i will not use english language because there will some words that difficult for me to translate its to english. But i'll try to keep using english in this posting. Before that i want to say sorry to all readers of my blog for my bad grammar and some mistakes for the pronounciation of the words.

I will tell my story of today. Started when i wake up in the morning, I was rather late to wake up this morning. Because last night i slept at 2 or 1.30 am. I wake up at 5 am. So i just slept for 3 or 4 hours. For a sleepaholic like me, its not enough time for me to sleep. Usually i slept 9-12 hours during the holiday. It's so excruciating for me.

And than during my journey to the school. My car tire was flat at the big street. Of course i was so panic. My father couldn't use jack to change the car tire. So I did it. But the condition of the street is impossible for me to continue it. And than i stop it, when i was waiting my father to called someone to help us, many of transportations that passed that big street, saw to me with strange gaze. They saw to me, like they never see someone that have problem like me. I didn't like their gaze to me. It was so strange and so weird. What's wrong with me, until they stare to me like that? I think i didn't have mistake with my look at there.
But suddenly, om oceng came to me and told me to go to school with him, so i join with his car.

After that in the school, i came late to the osis meeting and than the activities of mos at the second day go with the flow and success. And today, i felt not so good.Okay, enough for this day.

My another creation

2009-07-08T07:31:00.000-07:00

I love to play online games so much. And one of many online games, I like ayo dance and etc. But in this time. I want to tell about ayodance in this posting. In this game i can play that games, but not only that, i can desigh my avatar for dance too. Ayodance player have their own avatar to play the dance, and the avatar designed by their owner. Many kind of hair, clothes, skirts, dresses, eyes, faces, shoes and etc. But now, i tell only about the avatar.

To have the good avatar, we need chose the best eyes, clothes, hair, skirts, shoes and etc, We buy it with den(kind of money in ayodance) or mi-cash(kind of money in ayodance which need rupiahs). But most of the good items, need mi-cash to buy them.

If you only want to design it without have it, you can design your creation of avatar and save it in that game. When you play it, your avatar not like your design because you don't have it. To have it you must buy it.

I created some avatars design. And you may see my designs.

Those are not all my designs, i still have many designs but i don't post it in this blog because its so many. Maybe i will post its later.

My design

2009-07-08T05:14:00.001-07:00

Last week or last days, I played http://looklet.com/
It was so fun, because we can mix and match fashion in our style.
So the design of the model is depend on us.

Those are some examples of my design.

I think this fashion is match if we want to go to study in college or in some courses. Because this design is simply but stylish and fashionable for daily activities. The bag so simple but enough for many items like books, maps or etc.

I think this design is match if we want to go to picnic or recreation outdoor but the high heels must be changed if we want to wear this style to recreation outdoor. This design is match if we want to go to hang out with friends, watching movie in theatre, or just walking around at the department store and etc, without change the high heels.

I think this design is match when we will go hangout to department stores, or mall, shopping in the mall,or recreation indoor. The necklace so unique and i like it so much. The brand of the bag is prada with black color. I like all of the items of this model.

Tired

2009-07-07T06:07:00.000-07:00

Today, i'm feel so tired, really2 tired.hahahha
Because today is the first day of MOS for 5th batch SHGPS.
But i feel enjoy to do it.It's okay lah with some problems today.
I hope tomorrow, I can do better than today, and of course tomorrow will be better than today.
The problems of today are rather dejected, I feel rather angry with something.
But i try to keep it on myself and let it go without still memorize about that.
Just enjoy my life with smiling :D, and keep happy.

So dejected

2009-07-06T00:15:00.000-07:00

I feel rather fed up with someone, because she made me so bored in home.
Today is my last day for holiday, not one full time day, but it is enough for me to go refreshing.
She is or he is so egoist. They only think about themself, they don't think about another people.
I need to go somewhere, to some place that can make me feel enjoy or refresh.
They told me about something that made me feel so dejected suddenly.
They think that i can go refreshing at weekend, but the fact, i can't go refreshing during my weekend.
I must do something, that more important than go refreshing during my weekend.
So, there aren't time for me to go refreshing.
Okay....Thank's a lot for your egoistic.
I feel so depressed for all of your egoistic, enough for me to keep patient with you.
Now, i feel so dejected with you.

Hero (Kim Jae Joong)

2009-07-05T07:41:00.000-07:00

Who is he?

This is his photo when he was singing

He is another dbsk member. And I like him too same as i like yun ho.

These are more informations about him"

Stage Name: Hero (Young Woong)

Real Name: Kim Jae Joong (김재중)

Position: Main Vocals

Age: 23/24 (Western/Korean)

Birthday: January 26, 1986

Birthplace : Choong

NamEducation: "3rd Year University Student"

Height: 180 cm

Weight: 63 kg

Blood Type: O

Hobbies: Games and listening to music

Special Ability: Singing2nd Annual SM Best Competition - Best Appearance 1st Place

He looks so perfect in this photo.

Born in 1986, he was born with the blood-type O and has the personality of someone with the blood type. He ss the main vocalist of the Korean group "TVXQ" (Dong Bang Shin Gi), and carries out the role of the "big brother" with Yunho. He gives the most criticism to the members regarding music. Jaejoong has deep thoughts and talks straight-forwardly. His neat and tidy personality is portrayed in the dorm they live in; cleaning every corner of the house is blatantly a part of this trait, but he also is interested in cooking and feeds everyone in the group. Is the 'mother' of the group. Exceptional cooking skills and can prepare 15 kinds of dishes easily. Won the best looking award from SM and is a pretty boy, but his hobby is weight training -- he has a great, masculine body in contrast to his feminine face. Is interested in people's relationships and likes to love.

Right now Jaejoong cooks for his members. He improved his cooking skills while preparing for his debut also his parent's contribution was the biggest. Jaejoong's parents owns a restaurant in ChoongNam KwangJoo. JaeJoong went through lots of hardship during his youth. He took many part-time jobs from working in a convenience store, to delivering chicken, newspapers, and manual labor; there's nothing he hasn't done. Jaejoong also appeared in the movie 'Taeguki wa Hweenalli myuh' (waving the Korean flag) as an extra but its really difficult to find him in the movie. He appeared as one of the Chinese soliders. Jaejoong's special talent is his husky voice, but the one thing he likes the most is his eyebrows. When he was young his dream was to be a supermarket owner because he would be able to eat as many cookies as he would want.

He looks so diffrent in this picture, but he still so cute and handsome.

Questionaire:

1.) Name: Kim Jaejoong

2.) Birthdate: January 26

3.) Address: Someplace in Seoul

4.) Blood type: O

5.) Height: 180 cm

6.) Weight: 63 kg

7.) Shoe size: 275 mm

8.) Personality: Bright I guess? (People say I don't have a very good first impression.)

9.) Dream: To be a famous and respected singer, and to have my name remembered for a while.

10.) Specialties: Singing, Staying awake, walking, thinking, playing and playing the 3.6.9 game.

11.) Hobbies: My specialties are my hobbies

12.) My idol: A person like HK

13.) Celebrities you likes: MILK's Yumi, Shinhwa's Junjin, Yoo Youngjin, Hwanhee, Hweesung.

14.) Fav Flower: Lily

15.) I want to go out with this kind of person: HK

16.) Fav. Fruit: Bananas and apples

17.) People you don like: Someone who thinks he/she is all that.

18.) Fav comic book: I like most of the ones I read but my absolute fav is DRAGON BALL!

19.) What I worried about: Secret

20.) Sleeping out: I'll let you make up it on your own.

21.) Alcohol tolerance: around 4 bottles, but depends how fast I drink them

22.) First love: First year of MS

23.) Someone I respect: parents, Yoo Youngjin, Hwanhee and Hyesung

24.) Sport Im good at: Running

25.) Fav song: I have too many

26.) Number of blind dates youe gone on: 3

27.) When I look the best: When I've worked out for an hour or so

28.) Person I've liked the best out of all the people I've gone out with: ?hm?

29.) Fav number: 4 and 8

30.) Prized Possession: my parents

31.) Lowest ranking: what do you mean?

32.) Religion: buddhist

33.) What I think when looking in the mirror: star

34.) Fav color: black and blue

35.) Good thing about myself: I'm nice, but I think my first impression IS bad.

36.) Bad thing about myself: my first impression is bad.

37.) Drinking habits: I think a lot of myself

39.) On a rainy day I want to go outside and get wet: No~! I want to sleep

40.) Things I cook well: I'm good at cooking korean food

41.) Something I want to do right now: I want to go home and wach tv

42.) Foreign language I good at: japanese

43.) Something I want to do with the person I love: Walk near the river holding hands.

44.) A present I want to give the person I love: A piggyback ride near the river.

45.) Things I want: I have too much I want.

46.) If you met a boyfriend from the past: ?boyfriend??

47.) A present I want to receive from the person I love: Love and more love!

48.) Phone greeting: I can't type in what I want. I broke it.

49.) Ringtone: TT_TT

50.) Caller rings: TT0TT!!

51.) If you found 1 million dollars on the road: I'll leave a 1000 dollars and pick up the rest to save.

52.) Habits: thinking, laying down.

53.) Sleeping habits: I sleep on my belly.

54.) What I wearing as of now: White beater and jeans.

55.) I want to die when: I don't have the nerve in me to kill myself so I think I'd just go one suffering.

56.) Something I want to do right now: I want to debut!

56.) How many times have you received flowers from a person of the different gender: Do you mean given: is this a quiz for girls?

57.) Where I want surgery: ? what?

58.) My charm: If I get closer to someone, that person can depend on me.

59.) What people think of me: It's all different.

60.) Someone I say a lot: Let's save!!!

61.) What I'm scared of: cockroaches,spiders

62.) When I was most hurt: When I had a Jangyum

63.) When I feel the happiest: When I say something nice to my parents.

64.) What I do when I scared: I sing.

65.) When have you given chocolates to someone for valentines day: once in MS.

66.) What I do when I stressed: I listen to music.

67.) What I like to eat when I drink: Soup and casseroles.

68.) What I do when I'm mad: I hit things!!!

69.) Things I can't eat: raw food

70.) Time I get to school: ?

71.) Something I want to learn: acting.

72.) What I do when there is someone I don't like: Ignore them.

73.) When I was the happiest in my life: When I had my first rehearsal in SM.

74.) What I think of money: It doesn't grow on trees.

75.) If the person you love ended up loving someone else: I'll let them go because there must be something they don't like about me.

76.) Most recent time I cried: ??

77.) Sunshine or Moonlight: Moonlight.

78.) First kiss: 6th year of EM.79.) If someone I broke up with wanted to get back: I'll think about it.

80.) Favorite person of a different race I like: I like asians in general.

81.) My most favorite thing I own: I guess my clothes.

82.) How long I can wait for someone: 4 hours.

83.) When I was most disappointed: too long to write down.

84.) Your monthly allowance: 3oo or 400 dollars.

85.) Fav animals: Dogs.

86.) Fav. Season: winter

87.) Most memorable date: ? hm?

88.) What I look at when I look at someone of the other gender: Everything.

90.) Nicknames: Boojaejoong,JJ.

92.) Love is?: ? ...like a drug.

93.) When I know the person I love has changed: When the things they do change.

94.) What I don't like when I'm going out with someone: ...?

95.) What I like the most about myself: eyes

96.) A wish for this year: I hope everything I do ends up well.

100.) Last thing you want to say: wish me luck!

Okay, there are something wrong with the numbering, because it so much information and its make human error. Because I copied that from the internet, but i forgot about the adress of the site.

He is so cute when he is wearing eye glasses.

I want more holidays

2009-07-05T07:13:00.000-07:00

Hmmmm...my holidays for this timenot long enough for me.
I think my holidays too short for me.
I want more holidays.I need it so much..hahaha...
But it's okay lah, because sometimes i feel so bored during my holidays.
So i must be so thankful To God, because my holidays not too long so i don't feel bored anymore.
Okay, tomorrow i must weak up at 5 am or 4.30 am so i don't late for go to school tomorrow morning.
I hope tomorrow will be better than today.
And always like that.

About my feeling right now

2009-07-04T08:32:00.000-07:00

Hmm...I don't really know about myself now, because some reasons that really hard to say.
I want to say it but its so hard to say.
Okay, now i feel rather dissapointed with something, Something that I can't tell it in this blog.
Maybe there will another chance for me to do that, and i believe if i believe it will come true, and than that thing will really come true.
I will try to do my best for it, but sometimes i'm not sure that i can do that, because its so impossible for me. But nothing impossible if we try it. And its will come true.
I hope it so......much...
I hope i can try to do my best to do it.
Never gives up and always pray to My Lord.

U-KNOW

2009-07-03T09:32:00.000-07:00

This posting not about " do U-KNOW what?" or "Did U-KNOW about ...?"

This posting is totally about U-KNOW or Yun ho.

(He is so Cool in this photo eventhough only half of him)

WHO IS HE?

Those are his full informations.

(He is totally Perfect in this Picture)

Stage Name: U-Know

Real Name: Jung YunHo (정윤호)

Position: Vocal (Baritone); Leader ( he is the leader of TVXQ/Tohoshinki/DBSK)

Age: 23 (Western/Korean)

Birthday: February 6, 1986

Birthplace : Jun Nam

Education: 3rd year university student

Height: 183 cm

Weight: 66 kg

Blood Type: A

Hobbies: Listening to music, reading, sports and composing music

Special Ability: Singing and dancing

1st Annual SM Best Competition - Best Dancing 1st Place

( Eventhough He is wearing glasses in that picture, He still so cute and handsome)

Born in 1986, he is also an aquarius like Jaejoong. He is the team's leader and the bass vocal-part of the group. Having too many thoughts being a distinctive character trait of an A-blood type, Yunho also carries this trait. Won the Best Dancer award from SM and is the most talented in dancing. His hobby is to choreograph. Has experience as a rapper from Dana's 1st album song--Diamond. He likes to play basketball, and is talented in martial arts (hap ki do) for he placed 3rd in a contest. On the other hand, he enjoys writing fictional stories and has diverse thoughts.

DBSK's 2nd oldest member, U-Know or YunHo and he is the Leader of TVXQ/DBSK/Tohoshinki.

Yunho is often mistaken for the oldest in the group because he is the leader (Jaejoong is the oldest). As he particpated in the church choir he has the position of the base(the lowest note in male group) in the group. Yunho had a hard time becoming a singer. His father opposed of it. But now his father is the biggest supporter. Yunho is going to study hard and major in music in college. Just by looking at his face, it seems he grew up without any hardship right? Not, before he became a singer, 3 years ago, he left his home at GwangGoo and went to Seoul because he wanted to become a singer. From this time, he prepared to become a singer with YoungWoong Jaejoong. Since both of their circumstances weren't good they did part-time jobs at law schools and saunas and practiced hard.

(He looks so impressive and I love him so much,,,hehehe XD)

Questionaire:

1. Korean Name: Jung YunHo

2. Chinese name: Zhang Yun Hao

3. birthdate: Feb. 6th, 1986

4. height: 181 CM

5. weight: 66 Kg

6. blood type: A

7. religion: Christianity

8.talent: jumping,something has to do with breathing,dancing, singing, writing lyrics/composing

9. hobby: listening to music, singing, exercise

10. family members: father, mother, younger sister

11. future wishes(what he wants to be back then): PD,a successful businessman

12. what 2 do when theres free time: listening to music, singing

13. spent most money on: CDs,clothes and shoes

14. music type:Hip-hop, R&B and Soul, songs that I feel like it fits me(YH).

15. type of girl you like: girls that takes responsibilities, stand up for what they thought/said/and their actions.

16. future plans: becoming international star, want to try being a director and acting.

17. Happiest moment: first time performing with DBSK

18. most embarassing moment: while performing in China, some of the Shinhwa fans came up to me(YH) and mistake me for JunJin(hyung), they asked for autographs, too!

19. fav. food: I'm not that picky, but I like kimchi and BBQ meat

20. how did you enter SM: did a lot of dance performance, SM saw one of my perf. after that, I signed official contract with SM

21. fav. movie(s): Lord Of The Ring and This lazy woman

22. fav. gift from your fans: I like all the things the fans sent me, but if I have to pick, mostly CDs, clothes and shoes.

23. what type of music do you want to try: something simple

24. fav. scenery in China and food(they are talking about his trips to China with SM): I like PeKing ducks and SanDong cuisine; clearly remember people riding their bikes on the open road and the bar that is in some of the taxi!

25. what you cook best: Kimchi(soup) and pizza, its really good when I make it ^^!

26. fav.manga(s): CHIHRTO(itâ€™s in english. )

27. do you play video games: Yes, sometime, I like those boxing type games.

28. what you thought of the chinese fans: very good hospitality and nice

29. what you thought of yourself: when I start out to do something, I tend to/must finish it before I move along, I consider myself a very responsible person.

30. who are you mostly accquinted with in SM: JunJin(hyung) and Dana

31. first impression on Dana: first impresion was innocent, cute and honest singer. she still the same right now.^^!

32. sleeping habbit(they ask weird questions): there isnt really anything, except I like to sleep slightly diagonal.

33. nickname: JunJin Jr?? XD

34. trips to China with SM:first trip to ShengYang, China at May 13, 2002 with Shinhwa and Danasecond trip to BeiJing, China at July 18, 2002 for Korean/Chinese concert with Kangta, Shinhwa and Dana( ppl already notice him back then)third trip to HangZhou at Nov 23, 2002 with Shinhwa, FTTS, Kangta, BoA.the third trip to HangZhou, there was a lot of YH fans already. he was a guest and dancer for the HangZhou concert. at the end of the concert, he thank the audience by the title of a official singer.

I got those informations from some sites, but i forgot about the sites.

Pictures of him

(He looks so wonderful and amazing in this picture)

(He is slant eyed, but he is a pretty boy (like Lee Joon Ki, Wu Chun, Jaejoong, etc) and i like him...:D)

Not Good But Not Bad too….

2009-06-26T08:11:00.000-07:00

This story is about my last Student Report. I’m not really satisfied with the result. I think my scores in that report not really bad but to tell you the truth I’m not happy with that. I promoted to grade 11 Science, but I felt rather confused. I’m already do my best in last exam but the result make me feel so sad. Not about the scores, It’s about my rank.
I should be grateful to God because HE gives me everything in my life but why I felt that this is so unfair for me? I’m already do my best, but the result that I received isn’t the best thing. I feel rather disappointed with all of that, but I may not feel like that, because JESUS have the very amazing plans for our life, and His plans will wonderful at that time. And that statement that make me hold out to keep enjoy my life. I’m so thankful to Jesus for all his bless in all of my life. Without him, I can’t do anything, I just a very ordinary person, but because of HIM, I can do something that useful. Thanks my Jesus.

*And I believe that everyone that already do the best in her or his life will receive the result that same as their effort. Trust it !!

What will I do if I know when will I die?

2009-06-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

I will so afraid, and I will prepare everything, before that day come.
I will feel sad too, because at that I time, I will leave everything in this world.
EVERTHING…. without any exception.

I back to HIM without carry anything from this world.

But the real fact, we wouldn’t know about that time. Unfortunately we must be ready every time, because we don’t know that time. So, we must do good thing in everything that we do.

Hmmm…..So what will you do if you know when will you die?