The Silent Witness

Loving you is the most wonderful thing in my life. What is love? Love is you. When I close my eyes I see you in my mind. You are my true love, my whole heart. Nothing can replace you in my heart. You are successfully make my heart really fall for you. I've never feel like this before. This is my first love story. I do really really falling for you My dearest one. This is the real love. Thx God because You give him to me. You send him for me. He is the precious thing in my life.

Ok, gw disini mau minta maaf atas ketidak sportifan gw tentang hal talent show karena di dalam talent show ini gw gk mau memerankan peran sebagai cewe itu. Ya disini emang gw yang salah, gw gk sportif, harusnya gw yang meranin peran itu tapi nyatanya gw gk mau meranin peran itu. Gw punya alasan kok, kenapa gw g mau meranin peran itu, alasannya itu gw ngerasa gk pantes meranin itu, dan kalo tetep gw yang meranin peran itu gw yakin talent shownya jadi gk bgs bgt (jadi ancur) dan jadinya itu maksa gk jelas gt, dan gw jg g bsa acting2 kyk gitu, meski ada yang bilang, gw cuma harus diem aja dan gk usah ngapa-ngapain ttp aja gw gmw, karena untuk berdiri di tengah-tengah orang2 dengan peran itu, gw bener-bener gk sanggup. Jadi gw bener-bener minta maaf. Dan gw juga berterimakasih buat orang yang udah ngegantiin peran gw…..Thx so much ya…..really really thanks…:D

Well, kejujuran itu sesuatu yang penting banget bagi hidup gw. Pentingnya itu banget banget. Kenapa gitu? Soalnya kejujuran itu adalah modal utama untuk hidup sebagai makhluk hidup yang layak disebut manusia. Jadi kalo kejujuran itu bukan modal hidup utama lo, berarti lo itu sampah. Menurut gw sh gitu. Kalo ada yang tersinggung dengan kata-kata gw ini, ya suka-suka lo deh. Di dunia ini setiap orang bebas berpendapat tentang hal apapun kok. Okay, balik lagi tentang kejujuran. Ada prinsip/pepatah : BOHONG DEMI KEBAIKAN. Menurut gw itu SALAH BESAR. Gk ada tuh yg namanya Bohong demi kebaikan. Dimana mana bohong itu salah. Mw ngeles kayak apapun juga, yang namanya bohong ya tetep salah. Ya tapi sh itu suka-suka lo yang hidup deh. Kalo lo mau disebut sebagai manusia yg bkn sampah, ya lo gk bakal melakukan hal itu atau memakai prinsip/pepatah itu di dalam kehidupan lo. Kecuali kalo lo sampah, ya up to you deh, mau ngebohong kek, jadi penipu kek, atau apalah itu, bkn urusan gw. Ntarnya lo yang...

Okay, i think it is the best time to really introduce someone who full fill my heart and my mind. He is my super duper special best friend. He is mine since that time, but to tell you the truth i don't know when exactly he is mine for the first time. But i think it isn't important since I've closed my heart for everyone except him. My best friend had introduced him to me, or me to him, since i was 10th grader. Special thanks to my best friend. So, what makes me want to be his someone? For sure, i don't know the answer of that question. Because when the first time i stared his eyes, i feel something different, the feeling that I've never felt before. I just can't explain it. And then, why do i love him? I love him without any reasons, because if i can answer that question it proves that i love him with reason, i don't love him if i can answer the reason why do i love him. There isn't enough words to explain how much i love him. I just always ...

I know, life is a cruel thing. And time can answer all of my question. Sometimes I choose to don't know the real fact than I know it and my heart will be hurt. Now, what should i believe? My super best friend? My heart? The real fact? or WHAT? I don't know what should i believe. This time i don't know what to do, what to believe, what should i know, who should i trust. Pretend that i have never been born. Pretend that i have never being in love. Pretend that I can go to somewhere that i can get eternal peace. Run from my problem is totally not me. Only the time that can answer all of my questions.

It was so ridiculous when i can't stop thinking about it. It depends of many things. I don't know what to say but i just know how stupid i am to always thinking about it without knowing the other side was thinking about me too or no. I shouldn't thinking of it as much as these. I must erase it step by step. It just don't care about me, so why do i should care about it? It was the best damn thing (judul lagu mah itu, bodo lah) It doesn't even know what am i doing, what problem that i have, what condition i am, and etc. Thanks to made me feel like this.

Seems so different now, yeah i don't know exactly what's that. But i just know that, i don't know about your mind. I think you did it twice... haahhaha I can't understand you.