The Silent Witness

I don't really understand about what happened on my mind. My subconscious always remembering me about all of the good and memorable memories. I don't care how hard i try to make everything pretending that everything is okay, i can't do that. Maybe many people thinking that i'm the careless person because i act enjoyable and i act nothing happen, in the other side my heart is crying. That is so hurt me. I can't say anything or do anything to proof that i'm not what they said. Because i don't know the way to speak up my side opinion about this thing, and i want to speak up my real characteristic, i can't just follow another people opinion that isn't compatible with my principe which have connection with my life and not everything that happen in my life, i must tell it to another people because i just tell about my life which is common thing or i think another people can make a solution about it. I have the right to manage my own life, because it is my ...

I don't know what to say now. All of the things that i do just to pretend that i never know and assumed that is nothing happen. And maybe this make me feel the pain of remember it. I hope i have the delete button in my life, so i could delete some memories that i never want it. And one of the most important button is refresh, refresh my minds for everthing that have happened in my life. Sometimes when i was driving car or motorcycle, when i want to sleep, and even in my dreams those memories keep coming to my mind and make me review it again and again about all of the things in the past. I can't imagine that all of those had already in the past. I do really begging to God to give me a chance to fix it. To fix everything or change something. I always wondering that it will never happen, and i can stop the time or i hope i can review some moments that i want. But all of that just impossible to happen. I just pretend that I don't know anything. I closed my eyes, my ears, my fe...

I don't know what to say now. All of the things that i do just to pretend that i never know and assumed that is nothing happen. And maybe this make me feel the pain of remember it. I hope i have the delete button in my life, so i could delete some memories that i never want it. And one of the most important button is refresh, refresh my minds for everthing that have happened in my life. Sometimes when i was driving car or motorcycle, when i want to sleep, and even in my dreams those memories keep coming to my mind and make me review it again and again about all of the things in the past. I can't imagine that all of those had already in the past. I do really begging to God to give me a chance to fix it. To fix everything or change something. I always wondering that it will never happen, and i can stop the time or i hope i can review some moments that i want. But all of that just impossible to happen. I just pretend that I don't know anything. I closed my eyes, my ears, my fe...